Forever And Always

Chapter 6: New Girl At School

   Ever since my break down, I haven't really talked to anyone. James has came over, but I just couldn't face him. My parents have tried to talk to me, I just couldn't. I sat in my room, blankets over my head, and just cried. I really liked Jacob... He doesn't even know I know yet. I want to try to work this out, but I feel like something inside of me is telling me, it's not the best choice. School was tomorrow and let me tell you, I have plenty of sleep. The only person that knows what happened is James, and I still don't know how to think about that. Why was he so nice to me? Why did I cry infront of him? Did he try to kiss me that one day? He couldn't. I probably just read everything wrong. But why did I lean in when he tried? Do I like him? Or did I just want to get my first kiss out of the way? Gosh, I just need to clear my head. All of the sudden, I saw my phone light up. Guess who. Well, it defiantly wasn't James.

From: Jacob <3

Heyy beautiful :)

To: Jacob <3

Hi.

From: Jacob <3

Wat? Tats it?

   With out realizing, I took the... photo and sent it to him.

To: Jacob <3

"New Multimedia Message" I can't believe you, Jacob. I spent a year of my life with you and you can't even stay faithful? You wouldn't even kiss me, but you'll have sex with a girl?

 From: Jacob <3

How the fuck did u get that pic? And u never wanted me 2 kiss u. U said u wanted to wait! I can't believe u didn't find out sooner. Cmon Samantha. Don't be an idiot. Learn 2 listen 2 other people. I'm not faithful. I'm a teenage guy. Wat do teenage guys like 2 do? Fuck girls. U weren't giving me any attention. Wat else could I do? Masterbate? Think about it, Samantha. Don't act like a stupid bitch all the time.

To: Jacob <3

Cool. I'm glad you finally got the action you wanted. I'm glad that nothing happened between us and you know what? You're right I should've seen it. I should've listened, but instead, I actually trusted you. Obviously that was a mistake. It's over. Have fun. Party hard and you might want to get tested for STD's. Bye, Jake. :)

  A wave of relief washed over me. I guess I was glad to get that conversation out of the way. That's what I needed to hear, to move on. Yeah, it still hurt. Yeah, it's going to be hard, but at least I know what a jerk her was. And with that in my mind, I slowly went to sleep.

   "SAMANTHA! SAMANTHA! WAKE UP!", I heard someone say. I groaned and flipped to my other side. Then, I felt the person grab my pillow from underneath my head, and hit me with it. Thinking it was Grace, I reacted by punching. I heard a groan and looked at who it was. James. 

   "Oh my gosh, James! I'm so sorry. I thought you were Grace!", I said extremely embarressed.

   "If that's your way of telling me I need a hair cut, then dang! You really know how to take someone's breath away", he said with a smirk. He winked and rubbed his stomach where I hit him. I laughed and went and took a shower. 

   After the shower, I got dressed and fixed my hair and went down to eat. I gasped at the sight. My parents were sitting at the table with Grace, and James was serving them breakfast. 

   "What is going on?", I asked.

   "We came downstairs and James had fixed us breakfast.", my dad said. I looked at James and he just smirked. "This is the kinda boy you need to be dating, Samantha". I saw James still smirking from the corner of my eye.

   "Yeah, well I'm not going to be dating anyone for awhile." I then felt James grab my arm and pull me out to his car, leaving my parents with a confused expression. " Thank you, you saved me from a very awkward conversation". He smiled and got in his car.

   "You coming?", he asked. I nodded and got in.

   The car ride to school was extremely awkward and I don't know why. He looked like he was deep in thought and I didn't want to disturb him. 

   When we got to school, James turned to me and said, "Be careful" then just walked off. Wow. Very conforting. I started walking in to the school and head a bunch of whispering and whistling. I tried to keep looking down until a bunch of jocks surrounded me. 

   "Where you from, baby", one asked putting his hand on my shoulder. I tried to keep walking, but they just kept walking and circling me. I looked over and saw James and a girl that I'm guessing was Emily just watching.

   "I like girls that put up a fight", said another one. I started getting extremely nervous. There was no way I could take on all of them, probably not even one. I heard people laughing. I was terrified. I'm the fresh meat in school. I don't even have a reputation yet and I'm already getting laughed at. I suddenly felt one strong hands grip my wrist really hard. They started dragging me past the group of jocks, past the front doors and into the lobby of the school. I opened my eyes and looked up and it was a very angry looking James. "What the hell, Samantha? I told you to be careful."

   "I'm sorry I freaking walked alone after you ditched me." I yelled back at him.

   "Look, I'm sor-", suddenly he was cut off my a blonde cheerleader running towards him.

   "James!", she yelled running after him and hugging him. "Did you really just leave me for, that?" she said gestering towards me.

   "Well, yeah. Samantha, this is Emily. My girlfriend". The word, girlfriend kind of hurt to hear after all thats happened. I acted like it didn't bother me though and tried to be nice to Emily. 

   "Hi. It's nice to meet you.", I said in the nicest voice I could. She quickly gave me a distgusted look and said, "Don't touch me, loser. You can't even defend for yourself. Instead, you have to have my boyfriend help you". I looked around to see everyone circled around us. Great. Drama on the first day. "But that isn't going to happen anymore because you're going to stay away from him or else we'll have a problem. Got it?", she said in the snobbiest voice possible.

   "Now Emily, Come o-",

  "Shut up, James.", she stuck her hand in his face. "It's me or her". James looked back and forth, between me and her. He sighed.

   "Sam-", he began.

   "No. I get it. Of course, you'd choose her. I was an idiot for thinking you even care about me."

   "But Sam-"

   "No. Don't even try.", I said. He just stared down at me with a bit of guilt in his eye. He looked like he felt terrible actually. He opened his mouth to speak again, but before he could, I turned, pushed though the crowd, walked out the doors and began walking home.