You and I. Together - A Pokéspe fanfiction

14. Guilt

Green looked at me with wide eyes and it was clear that he was hurt. He almost looked like a kid who you just robbed from their favorite teddy bear. He seemed betrayed. The bell rang and he walked off without saying a word. Crystal seemed just as confused as I was. I knew he was sensitive to what I would say, it's been that way every since we decided to have lunch together for the first time but apparently, that applied to everyone? I just never thought he'd be so hurt by something Crystal would say.

''I don't understand why he's so upset. We only said he was kind of harsh on Blue.''

'We'? 

Sh*t, I never intended to say that out loud. Oh, I think I'm in trouble.

I looked over to Crystal, ''Uh, let's go to class then.'' She nodded and we headed over to the stream of students walking into school. There was nothing special on the way. The occasional friends bumping into each other on purpose and the ruckus on the stairs but it was like normal. It's not like I would've noticed anything weird anyway, I was mostly staring down at the ground because of how bummed out I was feeling. I was getting worried about Green. I said it before but, he's very sensitive and I don't like it when someone's upset because of me. I just feel... Bad.

I saw we were nearing the classroom and we waited patiently for out other classmates that walked inside before being able to properly enter the room. I walked over to my seat and sat down. I immediately looked around for Green but I couldn't find him anywhere in the classroom. I was about to sit down before I felt my heart drop at the sudden thought that had entered my mind.

He didn't run off, did he?

I slowly let myself onto the chair and took a deep breath. I started to feel a weird, rotting feeling form in my stomach and chest which I interpreted as guilt. I remembered how hurt he looked from that one sentence I said -on accident may I add. But just, the way his beautiful peridot-emerald eyes looked like the exact moment I finished my sentence. It broke my heart and I swear I never meant to hurt him but I guess he's more sensitive and emotional than I anticipated. I mean, I really shouldn't care this much about it but I don't like hurting other people and, for some reason. Especially Green. I let my eyes wander across the room for a second and I spotted Crystal on her phone, texting someone. Might as well distract myself from this annoying feeling called guilt, right?

I stood up and took one more glance at his desk before walking. ''Hey Crystal? What are you doing?'' I asked. She looked up, a little flustered. When she realized it was me she calmed down with a sigh. ''Just asking Gold if he's alright, that's all.'' She answered. Crystal leaned onto the back of her chair and shook her head. ''I bet you, he probably did something stupid and got himself sick. But right now, I'm actually kind of worried. He seemed in pain. What do you think?'' 

Wow, haha. No matter how many times Gold ticks off Crystal, at the end of the day she still cares deeply about him. I guess it's natural if you've known the other for so long. I nodded in response to her question, ''He did seem really weak and I'm surprised he even bothered to go to school but... He was fine last night. I talked to him and he didn't say anything.''

Crystal clicked her tongue and pointed to nothing in particular, ''Fast working bacteria, I'm telling you. And I still stand by my point, he's... Him, Gold. You know how he is. Probably decided to go outside in the middle of the night and licked some tree bark because he got curious about how the taste would be like.'', I snickered at the remark. ''True.''

I saw the teacher nearing the door from outside and I quickly walked back to my seat. I looked at Green's desk again and he was nowhere to be seen. I felt the guilt return to me and I put my head on my desk in disappointment and exhaustion. I exhaled and,

''Red, it's not the time to go and nap. the lesson's just starting and recess has ended. Or are you that tired of hearing my voice?''

I flinched and shot back up. ''No ma'am. I'm sorry.''

Ugh, I hate it when teachers do something like that.

I paid some attention to the teacher and some attention to the scribbles I was making. I didn't know what was happening really and sometimes I feel like I'm clueless as to what's happening about 80% of the time because I zone out pretty often. Well, I didn't use to but now I do, often. Maybe it's because of... Yellow?

I looked over to my left and saw that Blue wasn't here either. She usually sits a few rows down to my left but I don't see her. I thought she went to class early. I mean, I'm sure she's fine. Probably a dentist or doctor's appointment. Seeing as she didn't talk much about anything to us today, it may be the case. She could've had an appointment for something today and didn't tell anyone because she was upset about something and didn't want to be with us? Hey, maybe that's the case with Green too? He could've just had a doctor's appointment too. Maybe I'm just overthinking things with everything. I sigh,

I really hope I am.

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Sorry for the late update! I was kind of hitting a writer's block but I posted this one as soon as I finished it. It's a little short (like, 100 words short) but it was better if I ended it now. I hope you liked it!

Bye for now!

~Pencil