you're stupid
you're dumb
you're a loser
you're a freak
you're a hypocrite
you're a bad person.
Jide sighed as he read those comments, he didn't know what to do anymore. I watched him read those comments out loud to himself. I was sleeping but I was pretending, he always tell me that he is okay and is handling the hate well but it's obvious that he lies to me.
It makes me sad but also upset because he doesn't want to tell me that he is depressed. He keeps it to himself, I don't want him to do that because I don't know when that day will come when he will explode and lose his shit completely.
I got out of bed and walked up to him, I turned him around and got him up from the chair, we stood together at eye level. I leaned closer to give him a love warming hug, the next thing I know, I feel hot wet tears and sobbing from the younger.
He broke down.
He cried for the first time in 4 months.
He's held it in for so long that he bursted.
"My baby, it's okay." I said as I held him.
I heard him cry more violently , I rubbed his back. He doesn't look up at me, he doesn't want me see his pain.
"Babe, look at me." I said gently.
"No, I don't want you to see me like this." He refused.
"It's only me, baby. I won't hurt you, it's okay to give up, you can't be strong forever." I told him.
He sighed and looked at me.
I could feel the pain in his eyes, I feel my eyes tearing up. I hated to see him cry, he's my lover and i'll do anything to see him smile.
"Don't cry, baby." I kissed his lips gently feeling the salty tears on his lip.
"I love you." Jide said.
"I love you more babe."
