Sidemen Imagines 2

• 3: part 2; minishaw

The Next Morning;

I woke up and Harry was still sleeping. Does this mean that he doesn't get enough sleep either? I frowned as I imagined myself in that position and it was not a pretty sight to see.

Suddenly, Harry moved and he is laying on top of me with his arms wrapped around my waist, I smiled as I loved how Harry positioned himself.

I rubbed his back gently and I heard gently sighs of relief, relaxation. It was like a moment of feeling safe, I stopped and he moved my hand back knowing that he felt protected if he had someone to caress his body, not in a sexual way but in a comforting way. I heard him mumble some words.

"You don't deserve me, you have broken me. You have scarred me, I don't want you." He said like he was talking to someone directly.

He suddenly started laughing as if someone has told him a joke.

"You pathetic woman, not only you have abused me, you've cheated on other men as well. What type of fucking relationship is that?" Harry said getting angry.

I rubbed his back to calm down his anger, there will be times where he would get angry. He will start of by showing the faces, if you piss him off more. He will give you the can-you-fuck-off-look that's when you know when to stop put of you push his boundary, it will be the silent treatment.

He will quiet and just ignoring you, if you trigger a certain spot that will make him angry, he will go freaking ape on you. He will scream and say hurtful things that he doesn't mean.

Once, he has calm down, he will come back to you and cry then say he is truly sorry. When he cries or he is sad, he means it.

He opens eyes and I didn't notice as I was still focused on rubbing his back, he moves his head to look at me, I gave him a tired smile as he giggled.

"I never knew that you looked so sexy up close. What have I been missing out  on?" Harry giggled.

"You and your charm." I laughed as I rested my hand on his back.

"I've been thinking - actually no, i have been thinking for the past 2 years and it has never left my mind because i was scared to accept it myself." Harry stated as he sat up on my torso.

"What do you mean?" I said as I held his waist.

"I mean that I have been thinking about my sexuality for the past two years..." Harry said as his face went red.

I nodded as I stayed quiet to listen what he had to say next.

"I am gay but I used Stephanie as a cover up for hide that I am in love with you." Harry hides his face from embarrassment.

^you call her stephanie, i call her headphanie.😂 what is life anymore?

"Please don't be embarrassed, you supported me when I came out and now I'm going to give you that support." I said to him, he looked at me and he comes crashing forward giving me a hug.

"Thank you, Si!" Harry smiled as he pecked my cheek.

"I do have questions though." Harry said as he got back up again.

"What's up?" I said.

"Does it hurt? Does it feel weird?" He asked as he started tracing patterns on my chest while he was listening to me.

"Well, yes, it will hurt in the beginning but we can use our fingers to stretch you out before going in for it. And when I first had my gay sex, it felt weird and the feeling was very peculiar. Don't worry, someone will guide you." I explained.

"I want you to guide me." Harry said as I looked at him and smiled.

"Okay but we don't have to jump into this straight away. We can do it when you are ready and comfortable." I said as Harry nodded.

"Do you have any kinks?" Harry asked as he chuckled nervously.

"A few but you'll find them out later." I smirked as I winked at him.