nιcoтιne • reylo aυ

t h r e e

a/n: finally another update!! this chapter is dedicated to ReyloAddict because her stories slay and korvescence_9 because ty for always commenting it means a lot <3

"thank you..."

ben muttered his response lowly and shuffled his feet, ready to walk away from the girl.

"you know? he was the father i never had...i just-i just wish it hadn't happened this way...

he froze in his tracks at her words, turning around to face her.

"he would've disappointed you."

ben watched as her face contorted in slow anger.

"how could you even say that? youre disgusting! y-you're father just died!"

"i know that," he turned his back towards her. "i don't appreciate being continuously reminded."

"you should be," rey hissed. "i would love to have a father and the fact that you're acting as if his death means nothing is...so..." she became flustered and angry, muttering curses under her breath.

"thousands of people die each day, why should his life matter more than anyone else's."

"because he's your father, he's family. if it wasn't for him you wouldn't be alive."

rey took a deep breath before facing him once again.

"you shouldn't take something as family for granted."

so in a huff she turned her back towards him, walking up the block and leaving ben solo alone with his thoughts, and the silence was deafening.

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ben hadn't seen poe dameron in several years. the last time had been 4 years after ben's college graduation. poe, who was a year older than him had went to work for ben's mother at the resistance cafe.

at the time ben had been falling back into some bad habits and was slowly working on his own self destruction. 

poe tried, and failed to help him.

"poe..."

"ben..."

"don't call me that."

poe narrowed his eyes slowly, trying to get a good look at what ben had become.

"what's your name then."

"kylo, kylo ren."

he stayed silent and opened his mouth to speak again.

"what happened to you?"

"i have only become stronger, now, i suggest you leave before they come to get you."

"who's they?"

"you don't want to know."

so reluctantly, poe walked away, his eyes sad and his heart heavy over the loss of his childhood friend.

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ben remembers his very first girlfriend.

he can't recall why for she wasn't that special. just a girl, a plain looking ordinary girl that had happened to catch his attention.

okay, maybe she wasn't as bland as he'd like to think but looking back she was nothing special, just something of the past that left a sour taste in his mouth.

her name was bazine and she was ben's highschool sweetheart.

they were mainly on and off, eventually separating ways at the end of junior year and after that ben didn't think he'd ever see her again.

but he did.

at age 21, and while at the town bar.

at this point he was far from sober and he remembers her coming up to him at the bar, a thin short dress covering her slender build and thick eyeliner wings drawn on her eyes.

he was quickly drawn in.

"ben solo...long time no see," bazine hissed before they collided.

the next morning he remembers waking up with a pounding headache and the naked body of a girl next to him. the events of the previous night hazy in his mind.

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ben also remembers the last time he saw his father.

the infamous han solo.

he could remember the exact date to be in fact: may 8th.

he remembered this date for one certain reason and it wasn't exactly a good one: he remembered this date because it was the last day his father was alive.

the day in which he died right in front of ben's eyes.

a/n: whoop whoop three updates in one day let's goooo anyways i probably would've updated a fourth story but that'll be tomorrow because it's 12:15 right now and i have school: wish me luck on my test tomorrow morning