This is the last chapter of Refusing you, the next chapters will be Refusing To Let Go and Refusing Your Heart, so this isnt the end yet :)
Remember me? Of course not. No one remembers me, not even I do.
I kept my promise, I left and I changed, I shrunk into the background, I didn’t spend more than ten minutes in one place such as a shop and I never told people my name, I hadn’t heard it in a while, it sounded foreign to me. I moved to so many different places, states, even countries. It has been three years since I left Mystic falls and since then I had moved to four different states in America and eventually back to England. I had lost contact with my dad, hearing his voice on the phone and seeing his handwriting on a letter, hurt too much.
I turned twenty yesterday. This age was heartbreak all over again, Damon was twenty, and he always would be. I hadn’t heard or seen Damon since I left; I didn’t want to, life was too difficult.
I looked out of my small apartment window at the setting sun, letting a tear slide down my cheek.
This was the best I was going to get, no day was ever different. I woke up in the morning, avoided everyone as much as I could and went back to sleep.
The only freedom I felt was in my dreams, I would see everyone there, mum, dad, Stephan and Elena. I woke myself up before Damon could make an appearance.
I hadn’t smiled in a long time, nor felt true happiness. I missed everything about Mystic falls, but I couldn’t go back.
I still wore my ring, I couldn’t get it off, but I hadn’t used the power since that night. I’m kind off hoping its dormant again. Also, no one has tried to kill me, so that’s a plus, I think.
I know what you’re thinking; wow her life must suck. And yeah, sometimes it does, but I remind myself I’m doing this for the people I loved, who I still loved, who I would always love.
I assumed this was how the rest of my life would be, I would be the distant memory no one could place. But today was different, for the first time my heart felt something other than pain, today I had a reason to believe in miracles...
