Lust | kaisoo

10

**warning: sexual content, drama, heavy subjects, strong language. reader discretion is advised.**

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dks 

Jackson wrapped his arm around me, my eyes looking up to meet his. It was surprisingly dark and quiet outside, although it was only about 7 o'clock. He lead me into the movie theatre before we both took out our wallets.

"Nah, I got it," Jackson smiled at me as I rubbed my own biceps.

it felt weird to be out on a date with someone other than Jongin. although we hadn't really been on a date before, i still felt odd that i wasn't at the movies with him.

I looked around, worried that I would see one of Jongin's friends amongst the people waiting to get snacks and tickets. Deciding it was better to stay hidden, I pushed my face into Jackson's back. He let out a warm chuckle that made the heat rise to my cheeks.

kji

kyungsoo wasn't answering my calls. or my texts. or my video messages.

"where are you"

"i miss you"

"i love you"

i grew antsy and uncomfortable.

"Hey, you know where Kyungsoo is?" I called Baekhyun. He took a few seconds to answer my question.

"I think he's at the movies with that guy from chem class. Jackson Wang?"

my heart sank to my stomach.

"The.. The movies..?" I winced at my own words.

dks

Jackson and i had settled for the new Beauty and the Beast movie. you know, the one with emma watson.

We sat down in the back of the theatre, getting comfortable before I began eating away at our popcorn. Once all of the trailers had ended, I watched Jackson put his feet up on the seat in front of us. He looked over at me in the dark and smirked.

He was quite charming. 

"Hi.." he whispered, laughing a little as he laid his arm across the top of the backrest of my chair. I looked in his eyes and smiled to myself.

Charming was one word for it, i suppose.

•••

It was much later when we exited the movie theatre. We got a refill of popcorn before leaving the building, and I snacked on it while we waited outside for our über. 

I decided to check my phone.

Turning it on, my jaw dropped.

24 missed calls

39 unread texts 

They were all from Jongin.

kji

I fucked him as if my life depended on it. Pounding and pounding, my heavy breaths and his moans filled the room.

"N-Nini!" Baekhyun cried out, desperately holding onto his headboard.

With each thrust, I put more and more effort into them. All I could hear was his screams and my own skin smacking against his. My heavy heartbeat was in sync with my breathing until my climax.

Satisfied, I pulled out and cleaned up.

"Thanks. I needed that," I sighed, catching my breath as I clothed myself. Before I even knew it, I was back in my car and driving home.

Taking anger out on sex was probably the best thing I had ever experienced.

•••

Laying in my bed, I awaited a call from Kyungsoo. I waited for what seemed like forever.

My phone began to buzz around 10 o'clock.

"Kyungsoo?" I sat up straight when I answered my phone.

"Hey.. Sorry, I was doing homework," Kyungsoo said into the phone. My eyebrows furrowed.

"No you fucking weren't," I laughed a bit at his lie.

"I was!-"

"No, you weren't! Don't fucking lie to me!" I practically yelled into the phone, my face growing red in anger.

"..Who told you?" he said quietly.

I didn't want to out Baekhyun but I wasn't the type to lie.

"..Baekhyun did. He told me everything, and then we had sex," I let out a huff.

That was the last thing I said to Do Kyungsoo. Or so I thought.

•••

history class

dks

I kept my eyes down as I walked to History. Entering the classroom, I let out a shaky sigh.

"There's new seats. The seating chart is at the front of the room," Mrs. Lee announced before sitting down at her desk. I looked at the piece of paper and found my seat before sitting down in it. Luckily, it wasn't next to Jongin's anymore.

After he found out about my date with Jackson, we stopped talking. i was.. "fine" with it, as Baekhyun and Jongin were now "fuck buddies"..

School was going okay. i mean.. it wasn't great, but my grades were at a solid 3.6 GPA. not too shabby. although my dad constantly got on me for it.. that, and eating all the food in the fridge..

i think mentally, i was a lot better too. especially because my dad was done with his military work at this point.

but.. i wasn't happy.

i had taken up self harm.

it wasn't the typical.. cutting or whatever. yet instead, i would constantly scratch at my arms and hands until they were raw and throbbing. my mom got on me for it a lot, but she just thought it was a rash.

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Authors Note:

sorry for so many perspective changes~! i think it just adds to the story in a way.

okay i decided to answer some FAQ, so if you have any other questions, either direct message me or comment on this chapter, as i will be answering all questions from here on out.

q: is Jackson, Jackson Wang?

a: yes, i wrote him into the story purposefully to combine two fandoms. he is indeed Jackson Wang of GOT7.

q: why does Jongin taste like strawberries?

a: well i'm not sure why strawberries, but i wanted to associate him with a flavor or scent for future plot purposes. but i can tell you that the strawberry taste keeps coming up because that's the flavor of his chapstick.

something to note: any grammatical mistakes i make when kyungsoo or jongin are thinking are purposeful. even lowercases.