Lust | kaisoo

11

** warning: violence, drama, strong language, heavy topics. reader discretion is advised. **

dks

it had been 3 weeks since i stopped talking to jongin.

it was hard to walk alone in the hallways. although i didn't mind too much, i missed having my taller counterpart to protect me and shield me from the big, bulky jocks and douchebags.

"Chanyeol?" I complained, pushing through the crowd of people that had formed in the hallway. "What's going on?"

"It looks like there's a fight," he said, looking up over everyone's heads.

"A fight?" I blinked in disbelief. In a small school like ours, it wasn't normal to have fights.

"Jongin! Chill, dude!!" I heard someone yell, causing my stomach to flip. I already knew what was happening, but I didn't want to believe it.

"Jackson!" I cried out, forcing my way through the crowd. Now standing in the middle of the circle, I watched as Jongin beat up Jackson. His hands were covered in blood, and his throws were relentless. He was known as the bad boy type for a reason.

I burst out in tears.

I smacked, hit, and shoved Jongin, just trying to stop him.

"Stop!!" I screamed at him, my hands trembling as I clawed and punched at Jongin's back. Finally, a teacher pulled Jongin off of the mangled Jackson.

Tears streamed down my cheeks.

I sat on my knees and held Jackson's head in my lap until the ambulance arrived.

That was one of the worst days of my life.

•••

"Fractured cheekbone, broken nose.. dislocated jaw..-" I listened as the doctor listed all of his injuries off to me. Soon, I zoned out and let the ringing in my ears consume my hearing. I didn't want to believe it.

Why would he do this to me?

"We just need you to sign here," the doctor said as my hearing came back. I looked up at him and took the pencil he offered me. I looked down at it, tears filling in my eyes. I could practically smell strawberries.

•••

kji

I had been suspended for a week.

It wasn't too bad, I suppose. I just sat at home all day and looked outside. 

Sometimes, I would also sit in our side yard and stare at Soo's house.

The fresh breeze was a nice reminder of him.

I knew he hated me, but that didn't stop me from calling him every day to see how he was doing. 

jackson was a true son of a bitch to provoke what he did. he set me up to fight him, i bet.

the whole reason i had beat him up is because of one sentence he said to me.

"you aren't worth his time."

•••

dks

i didn't visit Jackson in the hospital as much as i think i should have. i was too busy with finals, as awful as it sounds. i would visit him on the weekends, bringing him homemade baked goods and homemade noodle dishes. 

it was stupid how much i missed Jongin. he beat up my best friend and.. somewhat lover..? over what? my heart? i don't know.. but either way, i knew that i missed the douchebag..

he had changed since we met and i had too.

I quietly stared down at the red marks left by my "self harm" as I sat on my bed.

my room was a total mess after the past couple of weeks.

"Eh.." I sighed, taking out my phone to turn on some music until I saw the notification.

1 new voicemail

I tapped on it and turned the volume up.

"Hey, Kyungsoo.. I'm sorry, again.. call me back, maybe we can have dinner together..? Fuck.. I'm sorry.."

My eyes filled with salty tears that stung my water line. His voice was raspy and soft. It was a tone that I had never heard coming from him before. You could hear the misery and regret with every vowel.

But I just couldn't get the visualization of him fucking one of my "friends" out of my head. Sometimes I would wonder if he enjoyed it, or if he was more gentle and caring than he was with me.

Yet at the same time, my body ached for his touch and his scent.

I got up from my bed and put on my shoes.

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Authors Note

it's funny because during this whole chapter, i kept listening to SHINee's "Farewell My Love" and "Tell Me What To Do" because i feel like they fit the theme of this chapter??

anyway, chapter 10 got SO many reactions and angry comments, it was AMAZING. i loved seeing all of the emotions it generated, and i loved how it captured jongin's inner, douchebag personality. 

thank you guys for all of the feedback and love, there was multiple requests for more updates so i decided to make time and update again today <3

i hope to be updating more, and i plan on continuing this story for at least 10 more chapters.