Lust | kaisoo

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Why should I even try anymore if I'm just going to be humiliated and exposed for my sexuality when I haven't even come to terms with it myself?

I didn't even know if I was surely gay.

But now I guess the whole school will know soon enough.

I laid with my face in my pillow.

"Kyung?" my Father's deep voice called out.

"Ne?" I yelled in return, closing my eyes while awaiting his complaint or request.

"There's a boy outside," he replied.

My heart sank.

I got up and went to my window and sure enough..

Jongin.

I groaned and rolled my eyes, getting back into bed.

"Tell him that I'm not here!" I yelled.

"He said he knows you're here, Kyung- is this guy bad news?" my Father yelled from downstairs in slight concern.

Sighing, I sat up on my messy bed.

I couldn't even lie to myself, nor my Father. I knew that Jongin was a good guy; I felt it in my heart. I decided to give into his manipulative games.

"No.. just let him in!" I fixed my clothing using any reflection available in the room before I heard footsteps coming up the stairs.

I gulped and looked over as my door opened.

It was just my Dad.

"He told me to give you this instead," my Father said in a slightly confused manner.

I took the small box he held out to me and watched him leave my room. I closed the door behind him before sitting back on my bed, opening the box carefully.

The first thing I saw was a small note, written in neat handwriting.

"You deserve better."

My heart couldn't help but flutter as a smile grew on my face.

I removed the piece of paper and beneath lay a ring.

I widened my eyes a little and took it out, revealing another hidden note under the ring's supportive foam.

"But this is my promise to you."

I read the note and looked at the ring, gently putting it on my finger. I set the box down and looked out my window.

Pebbles were being thrown against it.

I smiled gently and crawled out of my window and onto the roof. I looked down at Jongin.

I resented him.. but this was too cute for me to reject.

"It wasn't a set up!" he cried out to me. "Those boys- they took photos of us so I beat them up! And.. and I broke their phone! Please don't be so mad.. I need to talk to you!" he called out, being louder this time.

I didn't know what to do, or think, or say.

I remained speechless.

"Please.. I have to tell you something!"

"..What is it?!" I called out at last, softly biting my lower lip.

"I love you!!" he yelled out, louder than he had before. My face turned red, and my jaw dropped a little. "I don't want to hide anymore- I don't want to live in fear! I love you, Kyungsoo! Let's get through this together..?!"

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kji

He slept so beautifully.

I held him close to me, slowly stroking his shaved head as he let out soft breaths.

He smelt so nice.

I gently began to remove his shirt, being careful not to wake him. I worried he would overheat wearing his clothes to bed.

AUTHORS NOTE

I wrote this last year and never published it- so here you go, the long waited ending to Lust. Thank you for all of your support, and I'm sorry it took me so long to finish this book. I rarely log in, and when I do, I get too anxious to write; worried that it won't be good enough for all of you readers. Thank you to those who have stuck through until the end, and please continue reading my other books. <3 - minghao.