Sleepless Nights (RinHaru)

Maybe.

'I'm screwed.' Rin thought, flopping onto his old bed at Russell and Lori's house. 'Super screwed.'

Only shitty things happened to lead up to now, and it seemed things were getting shittier.

Rin was still pissed at his answer to Haru.
Kinda.. That's not even a proper fucking word! Kinda.. That's like the word "Nah". "
You aren't even saying no!
"Did you kill that man" "Nah"
"Are you secretly in love with your friend" "Nah"
"Are you outwardly in love with your friend?" "Kinda"

"Rin, honey, is everything okay?" Lori peeked her head into the room. "...You don't quite fit on the bed, love.."

"Yeah.. Everything's okay.. Jetlag." He answered a bit curtly.

"If you say so.. Dinner's in a few.. We're having mackerel.." She informed him, sighing lightly and leaving.

'Mackerel.. Haru's favorite.' He thought, laughing at an odd memory he had of him and... well.. you know.

After a few moments, he slapped himself in the forehead, realizing he was thinking about Haru for the 20th (no dramatization there, literally the 20th time since after he got onto the plane) time.

The way he Makoto so casually leaned against Haru when they hung out and the way he would sometimes smile that stupid puppy-dog looking smile at him made Rin so goddamn angry!

He just wanted to slap him into the ocean... Well.. No. Not that.. That's actually pretty mean.

Rin just wished he could have Haru to himself.. Somehow.
But, now he was miles upon miles away. Oceans away..

His thoughts were cut off by a loud ringing in his ear - literally.
He picked up his phone, wincing away from the sound that went directly into his ear.

It was Gou.

"Hello?" He picked up the phone after the third ring.

"Big brother! I thought you'd be asleep!" Gou exclaimed rather giddily.

"I wish I was." He shrugged lightly. "Does your data plan even cover calls out of the country?"

"I.. don't know.. Probably?"

Rin couldn't help but laugh softly,
how clueless and naive Gou was could be occasionally uplifting/adorable.

"Did you laugh? Jeez.. That's how I know you should be asleep." She said. "Well.. I just wanted to call to see if you got there okay.."

"That's sweet of you.. I'll be sure to try and call you again, okay?" He was still smiling a bit.

"Okay.. Bye bye Big brother!"

"Bye.." He hung up, tossing his phone onto his pillow.

Rin had no clue how to feel..
He was never exactly good with emotions.. unless it was anger of some sort.

The Adrenaline rush from swimming would always give him joy.. maybe. If you could call it joy?

Emotions are confusing and so was Haru.

He spoke so softly before Rin boarded the plane, almost as if he were a completely different person. Maybe it was because he thought Rin was gay.. It was so hard to tell.

Maybe. That's a fun word too. A sarcastic kind of fun, though.
Just like "Nah" and "Kinda".

"Maybe" could be a yes or a no.. "Maybe" could be positive or negative.
"Maybe" could be flirty or joking.
"Maybe" could be your best dream of your worst nightmare.

Maybe Haru felt the same way, maybe he didn't.

Maybe Haru would fall for Makoto, maybe not.

Maybe was in love.

Maybe so..

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I never thought I'd get so many requests to bring this fic back to life! Thanks to all of you for waiting! Te amo mucho, mis amores!! 💖
Shit fuck I realized I typed some wrong names
It's like 1 in the a.m and I'm sorry hksndmsms sorry people who read the first publishing I'm so sleep deprived okay bye I love you.