I woke up the next morning and Justin was sound asleep so I got out the bed without trying to wake him then I went into the bathroom and got myself cleaned up then when I finished I put on an outfit
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With some black leggings and some sneakers then I put my hair in a bun and put some mascara on then left the bathroom and wrote a note to Justin and walked out the room and walked downstairs and went out side and got into the backseat
Then Ricky came in the front and started driving to my doctor
At doctors:
"So how are you doing"
"I'm trying to get t there"
"Can you lay back for me and tell me what's on your mind"
"I feel scared and unhappy like my family using on the right terms with me and not feeling what I feel like they want me to be better but there not listening to how hurt I am"
And he nodded and said
"OK sit up please"
And I sat up and he placed cards in front of me
"Close your eyes and pick three cards"
And I closed my eyes and touched three cards then I opened my eyes and he set the three cards in front of me and they were pictures of
Heartbroken
Scared
Help
Then he said
"The heartbroken one means that your wanting to feel loved and that you lost something that you can't get back.
The scared one means that your hiding your feelings your locking everyone around you out your currently in a relationship and your not being completely honest about how you feel and I would think its best for you to tell him about your feeling and also with your family.
The help card is a rare one this means that your gone your spirit is gone your not you you want to find you but that one thing that traumatized you you won't let it go you wanna call out and get out but a bad negative side is keeping you in cause you won't let your feelings out to anyone.
So aspen I want you to talk to your family you need to or you won't get better I'm here to help you and the only way to get better is to talk I know what happened that night it was horrible but your fans wouldn't want you sad they want you happy they want that aspen back your parents want you back your friends and you know who does the most your boyfriend he scared that you won't be the same no more he wants aspen back I know your in there aspen and if your listening to me snap out of it where did you go"
And he snapped his finger in my face and its like something came inside me and I sat there for a second then I said
