is it love

chapter 33 (trying to get back strong)

Justin's POV

I woke up in the middle of the night with aspen sitting up curled up shaking and crying and I sat up and called her name but she wouldn't budge and I shook her and she jumped and kept shaking and I turned the light on and she was looking blankly at the wall and she was mumbling saying

"Its my fault I'm sorry"

And I sat up and she wouldn't even move so I got out the bed and went to Amanda's room and she shot up and walked to the room and sat in front of aspen and she wouldn't move the only thing I saw was tears coming out her eyes and her shaking

Then Amanda said

"Call her doctor"

And I nodded and dialed the number and they were on there way then a few minutes later the door rang and I went to answer it and I told them to follow me and we walked upstairs and she was shaking and crying then the doctor sat in front of her

And shined a light in her eyes and he said

"She's going through shock right now her pupils aren't even correct what ever she saw it got her good and it scared her to death does she have a phycologists"

"No she doesn't"

Amanda said then the doctor said

"Well I would reconsider you having Dr Mat look at her he'll help he's an expert get her back on her feet"

"Is she alright"

I said and he said

"She's is but she's mentally not she could harm herself if she doesn't get that medical help whatever it was that harmed her it has her hurting bad but Dr mat will give you everything he reads from her she'll snap out of the trans but right now she can't here you she can't even see she's looking at whatever it was that scared her and it got her good"

Then he took something out of his pocket and put it under her nose and she snapped out and looked around and he said

"There here take this when she gets like that put it under her nose it help its a smell inside that helps people with these kind of problems she will be in reality I'm a minute just watch her she needs rest and sense she's a famous celebrity keep her out the spot light till she heels she's under stress and its not good on her body but have her see Dr mat tomorrow he'll help"

And we nodded and he handed us the card and he left then Amanda said

"I'll be right back let me make her some tea"

And I nodded and she left then I layed aspen down and sat up and sighed then aspen shot up and screamed and said

"JUSTIN"

And I ran to her and hugged her and she started crying and shaking again and said.
"Don't leave me I was there it hurts me so bad i can't take it no more the thoughts keep coming in my head"

"Shhhh your alright I'm right here I'm not going anywhere I'll stay right here with you"

And I rocked her back and forth then layed her down and she went to sleep then Amanda came in the room and said

"When she wakes up can you give this to her"

And I nodded then she walked out the room and I sat the drink on the side of her bed and went to my side and cut the light off and layed down and pulled Aspen next to me and she Nuzzled her head in the crook of my beck and I smiled and kissed her head and drifted to sleep.

(Next morning)

I woke up the next morning with Aspen sitting up drinking tea and she looked at me and gave me a weak smile and I sat up and said

"How you feeling"

"Hurt"

She said with a broken voice and it made me sad then she said

"I need to see Dr Mat today I need help I'm scared"

She said and cried and I hugged her and said

"Everything will be alright I'll be with you every step of the way"

And she nodded

(At doctors)

When we got to the doctors we went I to the room where mat was at and we sat down and he talked to her for a bit and read her cards then he said

"Can I talk to you to for a sec"

And we nodded and he took us to his office and we sat down and he said

"She's gone her spirit not there its like its a whole new person whatever happened that night it got her and it scared her"

"What can you do"

Amanda said

"O I can help her but it will take a while you see what happened that night it broke her and she feels useless and alone like she's in her own work like she's trapped in a dark box and won't come out she's suffering with depression and she's traumatized she needs someone who will help her get out of it snap her back to reality she's broken scared depressed tired she just needs a break from that fame life she's not focusing on the real world she is trying to make everyone happy and it says that she's with a guy and he is making her happy but she doesn't know if he wants to be with a girl like her"

And he looked at me and said

"Your her boyfriend right"

And I nodded and he said

"Have you or her been distant or not sharing feelings or arguments"

"Of course not she hasn't been acting herself sense the day she was leaving for her tour it was like she was in a different place and she was like thinking about something and she wouldn't say nothing like it was hurting her or like it was on her mind but she didn't want to say anything"

"Well this is what it was she was thinking about her future with you she's been through a lot of breakups as I see here and she's trying to get into the comfort zone with you she feels like that your gonna leave her and that'll hurt her more"

And I sat there and was about to cry then he said

"But I'm gonna help her cause she's in bad shape and you guys need to show her all your love that's what she needs most right now and keep her out the media let her get back on her feet first But show her your there for her she needs you guys most right now she's got a lot going on in her head you don't even know but bring her back tomorrow at the same time and we'll all talk more together tomorrow"

And we nodded and left the office and saw her sitting on the chair playing with that pink plushy heart and she looked up and I smiled at her and grabbed her hand and we went out

and paps kept her questions and she squeezed my hand and I looked at her and she looked scared so I rushed us to the car and  she got in and Amanda got in the front and we drove home.

Things will get better promise. Next she'll be getting there but not quite