My Dear Dr. Love

Chapter 5

Dalawang linggo siyang nag-iisip kung ano nga ba ang tunay na gagawin niya sa sitwasyong ito. A part of him is concerned, a part of him is longing. Who would’ve wanted to see his lover in a hospital bed, and worse, not remembering him? But he have to make sure about this idea. Nag-isip siya ng mabuti. Kung talaga nga bang makakabuti pa para sa kanilang dalawa na ibalik ang naitapong anim na taong pinagsamahan. He tried to remember every beautiful thing that Janine has given him. She was absolutely the best girl ever for him. He remembered how Janine would cook his favourite kare-kare and get the perfect taste he wanted. She was the wife-material girlfriend, kaya naman naisip niya na ang tanga nga niya na hiniwalayan niya ang babaeng sobrang nagmahal sa kanya. Pinilit niyang isipin at ilabas sa utak niya ang dahilan kung bakit siya umalis, and the real score was, he wanted to try to live a life without worrying about anyone, how it feels like to enjoy a single life. He was doing good, actually, until he saw Janine that night.

            Okay na sana ang lahat. He was trying to forget her, but it wasn’t that long for him to do the moving on part. If he decides to come back to Janine’s life, paano niya gagawing makabuluhan ulit ito kung hindi siya nito nakikilala? If he doesn’t come back, her heart will be at peace not remembering the man who left her for an unknown reason but his heart will never be at peace. Kinakain na siya ng konsensya niya dahil sa pangyayari. But the least that he can think of is he can help her slowly remember what she has forgotten. Susubukan niyang hindi mahulog ulit ang loob niya sa dalaga, at ang pinaplano niyang pag-oobserve lang sa takbo ng utak ni Janine ang dapat niyang gawin.

PAGKATAPOS ng dalawang linggo ay nakalabas na si Janine ng ospital dahil magaling na rin naman ang sugat na natamo niya sa aksidente. He decided to visit her clinic. But he doesn’t really have a purpose on having a dental check up. She’s a pediatric dentist at puro bata ang tinitignan niya. He new that. She really loves kids. Biglang pumasok sa isip niya ang nakaraan. He admires her because everytime they are together na nagkakataon namang merong bata sa paligid ay talaga namang napaka-jolly ng aura ni Janine. Minsan habang nakasakay sila ng jeep ay nakikipaglaro pa ito sa isang taong gulang na bata at napapatawa niya ito. He really can see that she will be a good mother someday. Too bad, hindi na niya alam kung magagawa pa ba niya ang mga bagay na ipinangako niya noon sa dalaga. Everything was very well planned. Isang taon na lang sana ay ikakasal na sila. They already managed to build their small dream house, but everything was ruined when he left.

There’s something inside him that wants to go just to see her, but there’s a part of him where he wanted to grab her and hug her and tell her everything that he did was wrong. If only she could slap him a hundred times just for her to return the pain, tatanggapin niya lahat ng mga masasakit na sampal at salitang bibitawan sa kanya ni Janine. But everything is easy for her now. Makakapagtrabaho na siya ng maayos na walang dinadalang sama ng loob sa isang tao.

Isinama niya ang isa niyang pamangkin na hindi pa nakikilala ni Janine. Galing ito sa Australia at nagbabakasyon lang sa bansa. He planned to have a fake check up just to see if she was doing okay.

            She looks very normal. It was as if nothing really happened, except for the little stitch marks on her cheeks. Una niyang nakita si Kristelle na paakyat sa second floor ng clinic dahil naandun ang opisina niya.

            “Kristian, anong ginagawa mo dito?” pabulong niyang tanong na may pagtataka at parang naiirita.

            “Bakit, bawal ba?” he answered sarcastically.

            “Tahimik na ang buhay ni Ja. Hindi ka na niya naaalala. Ayaw mo bang maging masaya siya? I never saw her so cheerful since you left,” she was pertaining to Janine inside the clinic while she was doing a mouth exam with another kid.