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Jungkook - I Want You Pt1

Jungkook

Sometimes things just don't go the way you expect or want. The person you think you would end up with may not exactly be yours in the end.

I could still remember, it was on a really cold day when the gang met up for a movie night after the stressful examinations period. Seoyeon was invited as well, along with some of her friends. I couldn't help but watched her the whole time.

The way she had chuckled when Seokjin made some really lame jokes. The way she had rolled her eyes when Taehyung wouldn't stop teasing her about her sudden transformation to a real woman since she had make-up on and was wearing a dress that day. She was really beautiful, but I didn't tell her that. She was like me, we preferred nacho to popcorn. She drank with two straws and was really clumsy while eating her pasta, getting sauce all over her mouth - it happens all the time.

And it wasn't just that day. She would always have my attention, even without trying. When did this started? Well I don't know, maybe since the first day my eyes laid on her. Or maybe it was when I saw her at the library, struggling to reach the top shelf because of her small build. Or maybe it was the smile on her face every single day that caught my attention. I don't know. But I do know she got me fallen head over heels for her.

Okay, I know, cringy.

After that really boring movie, we went to an ice cream parlour for dessert. I remember, it was her favourite one.

Then, came the shocking announcement from her mouth.

"You guys can't call me single pringle anymore! I'm dating Minho!!"

Everyone literally froze, jaws dropped.

No, ice cream was too precious, no one dropped their cups of ice cream.

"WHAT?! Minho? Like Choi Minho?" Hoseok was the first to react. I guess it was because he's like the big brother of Seoyeon, the most protective one. "The one in soccer team?"

"Yeap!" she nodded her head, popping the 'p'. Her eyes twinkled, beaming even if it's just the mention of his name. "Why are you guys reacting like this..?"

Why? Oh no, it wasn't because of the fact that he's a well known player in school. Nope, it wasn't because I really don't like him. Nah, it wasn't because I don't like you dating other guys. No, it wasn't because of you smiling at the thought of him. Nope, it wasn't because I can no longer ruffle your hair and tease you. Nah, it wasn't because I'm jealous. No, it wasn't because I want you. No, it wasn't because I like you.

It was because I can never ever think of you, miss you, and like you without feeling guilty, without feeling like I shouldn't and can't. Because you're already someone else's.

I clenched my fist and held back those words I wanted to spill so badly. I wished she could hear my thoughts and know I wasn't happy.

Almost everyone in school knows Minho's reputation of being a playboy. Probably except Seoyeon since the library is like her home. No wonder people labels her as a nerd.

Oh and the most ridiculous fact about him? He had dated a girl before, for only a day, then dumping her the next morning with just a text.

The guys weren't happy with Seoyeon's decision to date the playboy too, not just me. The thought of him treating her that way made me clenched my fist even harder. "Don't you know you are playing with fire? You're gonna get hurt Seoyeon-ah!" I said, without knowing I was actually angry. Hoseok patted my shoulder, calming me down slightly.

Seoyeon's smile turned into a sad smile and I could tell it wasn't a genuine one. "Minho is nice and he respects me, I don't see anything wrong here. I will be fine so why are you so against him?"

"Nice? More like being nice to get into your pants! Aren't you a nerd? Why are you acting like a fool now?" I shouted, breathing heavily because of anger. The people around us were staring but the only thing I had noticed was her smile disappearing and her eyes becoming teary.

Then it struck me, I had gone too far with my words. I am too selfish. Because of my anger and jealousy, I have hurt her with words which I have carelessly let out. I groaned, stomping out of the ice parlour.

I was angry with myself and I couldn't bear to see her cry because of me.

I didn't talk to her the next day, or the next few days or the next few weeks. It was hell, without her talking to me.. or more like I was the one avoiding her. I was mad at myself and I didn't know how to face her. I was worried that I would hurt her again because there were many many many many many times when I see her in Minho's arms, giggling like he had told her jokes that were funnier than Seokjin's.

Wait I mean Seokjin's jokes were never funny to me psh lame

I had to always gripped onto my books hard or clenched my fist tight to stop myself from punching the shit out of that bastard and break his arms. Other than anger, I felt like crap as well because I know I can never make her that happy.

I shut my eyes tight and turned away, it was too painful to watch her being in other guy's arms.

Jimin seemed to notice this and headlock me playfully. "Yah stop staring at her if not gather some balls and talk to her. It's been like what? 2 weeks?"

I pushed him away, making sure my hair isn't messy. "Leave me alone hyung.. I don't deserve her forgiveness." I sighed.

"What forgiveness? Did you even apologise to her?" Jimin smirked playfully, knowing he got me.

"Shut up, I just.. argh! I don't know!" I pull my hair, messing it up again.

"Come on man, just find a time and talk to her. At least apologise to her. You were really hurtful that day." I looked down at my dirty white converse, contemplating his words.

Yeah.. I should probably do that.

And that's how I ended up waiting outside Seoyeon's classroom, after making up an excuse and begging the teacher for a 5 minute early release.

As everyone rushed out of the classroom, I spotted her in her baby pink sweater. Before she could walked away while looking at her phone, I grabbed her hand. She looked up with her hazel brown eyes and they looked at mine in shocked. "J-Jungkook?"

"Come with me." We ran up the flight of stairs to the rooftop, with her small hand wrapped in mine.

"What are we doing here?" She said softly, pulling her hand away from mine.

Ouch

"I'm..I'm sorry." It finally got out of my mouth. "I shouldn't have said those words that day. It just somehow came out of my mouth and and I-I don't know why-"

"Jungkook.."

"I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, I didn't mean to. Please don't ignore me. I'm sorry Seoyeon-ah, I'm sorry. I can buy you the kpop album you wanted, anything I mean. I-"

"Jeon Jungkook!"

That stopped me from blabbering. She started laughing and I just stood there, confused.

"You are blabbering again." Seoyeon chuckled. "Every single time when you're flustered." She whispered the last part but I heard it.

My heart fluttered. She noticed that?

"I have already forgiven you, Jungkook. Even before you apologise. The boys explained to me that you were just worried." She smiled, shrugging her shoulders. "You should thank them."

Yeah, and jealous.

I bite my lips, "So we cool now?"

Suddenly a fist came in contact with my stomach, punching me hard. "Yah!"

"Yeap we cool now." She chuckled, grinning in triumphant.

"You're really ladylike huh?" I teased her, causing a smack landing on my chest.

Gawd I missed this. I missed her.

-TO BE CONTINUED -