Evan Green's Secret Journal (Book 1)

Chapter 4: Date

i got up and put on my best bow tie. it was big, orange. i fastened it on. it was a clip on one I buyed at tie mart. I got up and i took a breath. i was breathing and sweating. i was excited and nervous. I was nervouscited. i sat up in my bed and i straightened the pillow's. i said This is my big night. it was morning though. But i was so excited last night i couldn't sleep. i couldn't handle the pressure.

I was excited and i woke up at 3am to get ready. it took a long time. I trimmed my hair and i take a shower. i used green apple sented shampoo and it smelled good. My hair had to smell fabulous for my date, yeah. I thought. i put on my anti acne products and my skin cream. I ate a bagel and i brushed my teeth with my ultimat toothpaste streight from the can.

I saw my mom. she was proud of me. She said I'm proud of you evan. i said thanks. i hopped in my voltswagon and reved the engine up. Vroom vroom it said. i laughed at my car and i drived away in a puff of smoke steam. I had t go to the gas-station to gas up before my big night.

i went to the gas staton and i filled up the gas tank. It was full so i went inside and i got a latte. I was wearing my osiris big shoes that were black w/ blue and green stripes. I also had a one direction shirt on and skinny jeans. I looked radical. I sipped the latte and i took a breath. The cashier guy said I look cool. I said okay. I threw out the latte in the trash even tho I only drank 1/25 of it. I bought some chewing gum and threw it in the front seat of my vehickle. I said cool. i revved it up and i left.

I was on my way to pick up some food to eat for breakfast even tho I ate that bagel. Anyway i went to boston market but they said they were closed. ??? i said. So i screamed at the building and I ran away back to my car. I slammed the breaks and i left.

I ate mcDonalds and I left. I went to rhondellas house. She was at the door, at the door waiting for me. I said Hi and she went in the seat next to the driver seat. She said Whats up. I said Nothin but the sky. She didn't respond but she turned teh radio up louder. It was a 1 direction song. I couldn't hear my own thoughts with the music blast through my head and eardrums. I rocked my head and i said Yeeeah. We went to a park and went on the swing sets. Then we left and we got dippin dots and I licked them.

I went in my car and Rhondella went in there. I took a deep breath. i was sweatingly nervous. I said rhondella will you marry me. She looked silent. she said No Evan. I felt my heart break in half and i said why. i couldnt conceal my sorrow. Rhondella said I can't Evan. i have a boyfriend now. But i said what????. I thought i was your boy friend. Rhondella siad no you were a normal friend. Why did you date me then? i shot back. She said I dont know but i can't marry you.

I cried some tears and i kicked rhondella. Out of my car i screamed. She ran away and cried. I saw a fountain with a body by it. I said why. I skidded away in my car. I drove home and the tears kept on comin. I said why would you do that Rhondella. i whsipered to the wind.

A tear fell out and landed on teh cars seats of fake leather. I rubbed it into the material so my mom wouldnt notice. What do i do I screamed. The tears flowed until i was all out of it and the tears dried up. i couldnt cry any more. Why was i so sad. I hated my life.

I drove home and i ran to my room. i opened my mini frige and i got some ice cream. I ate it and i cried in it. My mom came. Whjats wrong. Nothing. i cried. She left and i ate the container of ice cream. My life was sad.

I watched tv and i sang a sad song about my life. It went like that:

I had a girlfriend but she didn't marry me so sad

Sadness in the darkness of the night

i can dream of sadness in my dreams

Darkness of the sorrow in the night

I can eat th ice cream when teh tears start falling

Like niagra falls they fall like a waterfall

I watch tv with my car and my mom

But i want a dog but she said no

i had to be a exchange student at a lot of schools

I miss my true love and no one knows my secret

Rhondella, yeah rhondella

She was my one true love and i can never replace

The love she provide inside of my broken soul

I just want me to be the real me

a mask of deception in my face

I cant show the true me

I want someone to steal my sould because i cant replace

the love that i was given that got taken by a place.

I sat in my sorrows and i ate the ice cream and cried through the night. I watched sevral shows and i watched them. I hada  flat screen tv and i watched it alot. I cried and my tears flowed and i never falled asleep until the morning. I sat there in sad and i cried through the night. I sat there and i cried and my face got sad and tearful. The tv was a bright light beacon in my dreams. I dreamed when i fell asleep deep in the morning.