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Sounds Of Anxiety

Have you just felt so anxious that you would do almost anything to make it stop, no matter what the consequence?

How about being in a group of friends, but you feel like you annoy everyone and should stop talking, and then when you do, you seem to be invisible to the group and you feel alone?

I am scared to be alone.
I am scared of myself.
I am scared that one day, history will repeat and I will find myself empty inside, incapable of feeling anything but hostility and greed, because I drove everyone away.

The sound of anxiety is when you plug in your ear buds to your phone and disregard the volume warning for hearing loss.

The sound of anxiety is when you play your music so loud your mind seems to glaze over and all you hear is the sounds from your phone and all your worried, stressful thoughts.

The sound of anxiety is when you know that no one else knows what you are doing when you blast a song and block out everyone else, but you still get mad when someone interrupts because they don't understand that it is your coping mechanism.

The sound of anxiety is just trying to hide your disorder in public with an action that would seem so normal that most wouldn't think twice about it.

But what if when you have to put your ear buds away and face your problem unprepared and unarmed?