I'm the kid
Who's parents are divorced
Any "normal" kid
One who has not been in that situation
Already feel the need
To give sympathy
"Do you ever see your dad?"
"No."
"Does he send letters or call you?"
"No."
"How long has it been since you saw him?"
"5 years."
"Oh.
I'm so sorry.
That's terrible.
I hope you see him soon."
You assume I am upset by this
I'm not
I'm upset because of his actions
I'm upset because he is my biological father
I don't want to see him
I don't want to talk to him
I don't want to have him in my life whatsoever
He is toxic,
He is abusive,
He is an addict,
He is a criminal,
He is a cheater,
He is a liar,
He is unwanted by me,
And I am unwanted by him
That is our unspoken agreement
I am sad
Because I cannot forget
The mentally traumatizing events
Caused by him
Not because he is gone
I do not want your sympathy
Because you do not even know
The half of it
And I stand on a bridge above rock infested water
With my back towards to the waves
On the edge
Arms spread out
And eyes close
With my shoulder length hair
Blowing around my face messily
I fall back
Onto rocks and water
I can't face my fear of water
So I had my eyes turned away
When my death hits the paper,
So many will think it was
Because of a divorce
No
How wrong you are
To make such
An ignorant assumption
When you weren't even half educated on my story
Or myself as a person
I'm the kid
With divorced parents,
A past of self harm,
Anxiety,
Suicidal thoughts,
Low self esteem,
Insomnia,
And depression
I'm the kid
Who has been poor,
Starved,
Almost murdered,
Bullied,
Outcasted,
Silent for too long,
Terrified of people
I'm the kid
Who flinches
When people touch me
Because I don't wanna be hit
I think people will hit me
Because I have witnessed
A physically abusive relationship
And you think
Out of all my problems
Being separated from one
Out of two people
Who caused this
Is why I would kill myself?
No,
Sweetie,
That's not how I function
I
Want
To
Know
If
God
And
Angels
Truly
Exist
Among
A
World
Of
Demons
And
Multiple
Sinners
