Fame|| g.d

Epilogue ~the letter~

Songs for this chapter: Nothing Like Us-Justin Bieber, Amnesia- Five Seconds Of Summer, The Heart Wants What It Wants- Selena Gomez, The One That Got Away-Katy Perry, Only You-Selena Gomez, Sorry-Halsey, and heartbreak, by your past.

Dear Grayson,

I'd had a dream. We were walking, hand in hand. Like in a perfect black and white romantic movie. And suddenly, it all went dark. You knew I hated the dark. So you held both my hands, looked into my eyes and told me you'll find the light. And you left. And never returned. I had cried that morning, before realizing it was all in my head and you were still mine. But you weren't. You never were.

I know there's a lot for us to say. To ask, demand an answer to. As I write this, every thought that I let slip away is threatening to spill on this paper. Every emotion that went unnoticed, demands to be put to words but I won't let it happen.  Because this isn't a question, or a demand. This isn't a request or a rant. This, Grayson, 

Is goodbye.

I tried so hard to run away from this, from us, but it was like running away from the wind. All this time I was running away, Grayson. From this,  from you. Maybe, somewhere I knew this wasn't right for me. Maybe that's why I always ran. I knew the air smelled like a sweet poison, so I kept running. But I couldn't outrun it.  I can't. So today I'll accept it.

You, you were my poison, Grayson. And today I'll accept it.

I don't know why you did what you did. And I don't wanna know. Those things seem so trivial now. Now that we're hear, at the end. Finally.

You were the most beautiful thing that walked in my life. And just as beautiful as you left. You, destroyed me, so beautifully, Grayson, that I can't even dare blame you. I could never blame you for what I let happen. But I'll carry your color forever. I'll carry this story with me. Untold, unheard, unnoticed.

I don't know if you ever realized what you were doing. I don't know if you ever realized what you let them do to us. I don't know why you let it happen. I'll never know.

Grayson..Gray..I always loved you. And I always will.

I'll never know if you never loved me,

or fame broke us apart.

But I'll never forget the way you had looked at me before you went searching for the light and never came back.

In another life, maybe, we won't make mistakes. In another life, maybe, you'll just be a name nobody knows. In another life, when your eyes meet mine, I'll hold your hand and look in them  and make you realize, " Together, they can't break us."

Remember to look for me.

Goodbye, Grayson. My lover, my poison. I'll carry your scars forever.

Your princess,

Eileen.

Thank you guys, for everything.

Love,

Moony