hey joshie.
im not sure when you'll actually read this, to be honest. whether you'll read if at all, huh?
thank you for making my life bearable. if only for a little while. thank you.
im sorry i never spoke to you. im sorry i never told you what was going on. you deserved to know, i guess.
i know you're destined to live a long life. a very, very long one. i know your fate is to have a wonderful, healthy family and live a lovely life.
i do feel bad for leaving you behind - i have my peace now, but you're still stuck in that goddamn awful world.
although, the way you're going, you'll probably change this whole godforsaken world, eh?
the world needs more josh duns'. less tyler josephs' and more josh duns'. that would be good.
im sorry for leaving you behind, joshie.
i know i said i'd grow old with you. it was just too hard. too much pain. too much.
im not a fighter - im not a trooper. im a weak, broken, little boy and i couldn't handle so much pain. im sorry.
i love you, joshie. my gorgeous ray of sunshine - i love you.
please try and move on, but please don't forget me. remember the weird, shy boy you met on the bench in a park. remember the happy me. please.
i love you, my baby. i love you. stay strong and stay safe. i'll see you soon.
all my love, your baby, tyler joseph.
xo
Zack shook his head, watching a tear splatter on his shirt, and pushed the hair on his forehead away. It was too rainy and cold for an August day, yet he knew why.
The tall boy knelt down and slowly tucked the note into a crack in the headstone. He traced his fingers over the imravement, smiling weakly.
Joshua Dun
1988-2009
Loving brother, son, and boyfriend.
Zach shook his head again, leaning back to smile at the two headstones directly against each other. It hurt, but he knew they were both happy together. Whether that may have been.
He knew they were happy together, and that put his mind at ease.
He was okay, if they were.
And they were.
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end now i promsie ok lol bye
