Fix Me (Doctor Who Fanfiction)

Chapter 14 ― Some Things Are Better Left Unknown

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CHAPTER 14

SOME THINGS ARE BETTER LEFT UNKNOWN

We left the dining room to walk among the other first class passengers on the deck. It was really beautiful out and we found two free long chairs and sat down to relax a bit. We talked about nothing specific for a while until Amy and Russell walked past us.

Amy had a huge smile plastered on her face and Russell was laughing at something she had just said. Over all, they seemed to be having a really great time. But something bothered me.

“Don’t you think it’s weird that we let Amy flirt with strangers? I mean, you know, since she’s engaged to Rory and all,” I asked.

“Well, to be honest, AJ, I don’t have a clue if I’ll be able to bring Rory Williams back… Not the slightest. And for the meantime, Amelia is technically single which leaves her free to mingle with who she wants,” he explained.

I shrugged it off. I only knew Rory for not even a day and barely spoke a word to him. He helped me with my ankle and that was it. I didn’t know him and what he had with Amy.

But the way he would look at her… Made me wish someone would look at me like that.

Another thought travelled my mind. What if… I would fall into a crack? Stop existing? Never have to go through everything that happened to me? The thought was almost appealing. But then I looked over at the Doctor who had his eyes closed, enjoying the sun.

He looked so peaceful and happy. I couldn’t help but smile to myself. He was such a great man. He had saved my life many times, he would make me feel safe and he cared about me… I realized that I cared for him a great deal as well. He was, right now, everything to me. The only thing making me hold on to life…

I realized that I might actually love this man.

This couldn’t be… This really couldn’t be! This was ruining everything!

As we ate dinner at Russell’s table with his family, discussing things that I didn’t give a fuck about, I kept looking over at the Doctor, who was seated in front of me, nervously.

For a while, he was the only person with whom I felt completely comfortable with and suddenly, I was a mess around him. All afternoon with him, I avoided talking and eye contact with him. I felt so… embarrassed? Or maybe scared was the better word.

I had always been like this around guys that I liked. I would run away from them. Jared was the only one willing to run after me. After he had hurt me so bad, I had promised myself to never let it happen again, to run faster and never let them catch up, but I couldn’t run from the Doctor.

I kept repeating to myself that I couldn’t possibly love him. But sadly, all the signs were there. Weird feeling in my stomach, uncontrollable blushing and being unable to speak normally around him. Maybe it was just a crush? Maybe I would get over it in a week. But for now, it was all I was able to think about. He was all I could think about.

“So, Ariella, Amy tells me the Doctor…” Russell started – he still thought it odd to call him Doctor, - “is your fiancé. Planning to tight the knot in America?”

My eyes widened in surprise and I looked like him like an idiot. Why did every time we lied to people, they always had to make me the Doctor’s lover? Not that I was really complaining… I looked over at Amelia who was gesturing for me to go along with her lie. In the meantime, the Doctor didn’t look surprised at all and actually had a lovely confidant smile on his face. He was always so much of a better actor than me.

“Hum, yes, America. It’s… where we meant,” I faked a smile.

Well, the last part was true.

“Oh, how adorable. Tell me, how did you meet?”

Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit! I was panicking inside. I was terrible at inventing stories and he was surely going to see right through me. As I opened my mouth to stutter a lie though, the Doctor spoke before me.

“Oh, you know, the old business trip here and there. Went to this pub in Boston one evening, looking to past the time when there she was looking as lovely as ever. Oh, those brown eyes got me from the start! I hurried to introduce myself and at once prolonged my stay. It didn’t take me long to make her my beautiful fiancé!” he lied so naturally that even though I knew it was a lie, I could have believed it. “Of course, she wasn’t from Boston either so when we were both back in England, I asked her father for his daughter’s hand – though she had already said yes if I might add – and here we are today.”

“That’s a great story! So Doctor, what exactly do you do?” Russell’s father questioned.

And he went into another big lie about owning a construction business that was just starting to really take off, but that he was already quite wealthy thanks to his father’s heritage.