Her Hoodie

Chapter 40

Song of the chapter: Tory Lanez - Proud Family

Lana's POV

The day seemed to drag on for what felt like forever. The house was quiet, mainly because the boys had left to go somewhere and Franco had left to go for an errand.

It was just I and Lissa in the house.

She seemed upset last I saw her, and that was a few hours ago when I had come in after speaking to Xander.

She told me that she was tired and that she just wanted to be left alone for a while.

I let out a sigh.

What the hell is going on

Turning over onto my stomach I held onto my pillow, pulling it into my chest. My mind wandered to the moment I kissed Xander before moving onto the slap he received from Franco. I bit down on my lip after faintly tracing my fingers over the surface. Pursing my lips tightly I turned over onto my back, while still clutching onto the pillow tightly.

What Lana!? What do you fucking want? You want me to pour out my fucking feelings to you about this issue, huh, is that what you want?

I let out a sigh when I thought back onto what Xander had said. Thinking back on it, I honestly didn't know what I wanted, maybe the truth about what was happening around us. I wanted to know all the secrets, secrets that have been kept away from me.

Well maybe it's easier to lie then to tell the truth

I couldn't judge him or them, why should I, when I never opened up to Xander about my abuse. He had to find out via hospital. All those times he'd try to get me to talk to him, I'd blown him off and see where it's lead us now.

Now I understand this feeling, this pain, this hurt of not being able to help someone you like.

Sitting up from the warm bed I stood up and made my way towards the door. I decided to go downstairs to the kitchen mainly because I was hungry.

I walked down the stairs taking slow even steps until I found myself at the door of the kitchen.

Walking inside I made my way towards the fridge to look for something to eat.

"Hey sis" a voice said.

I nearly had a heart attack on the spot, when I heard Theo greet me after entering the kitchen.

"What the hell Theo, you almost gave me a heart attack" I said, placing my hand against my chest.

I watched as he playfully rolled his eyes before taking a seat near the island. The kitchen was silent as I continued to raid the fridge, I could feel Theo's eyes still on me while I did so.

"Where'd you go?" I said after grabbing a sprite can. I didn't feel hungry anymore.

"Out with Leo" he said vaguely.

"Oh cmon, really?" I huffed.

"After both I and Leo dropped of Jaime, we went down to the diner to meet up with Antonio. Leo had to leave early because his dad called him, after he left Xander arrived" he said.

I bit down on my lip nervously at the sound of Xander's name.

"Is he okay?" I asked.

"Who?" Theo said.

"X-Xander, is he okay?" I repeated.