Sassy and Sweet

Kabanata 10

WARNING : RATED SPG! Mejo malaswak

Kabanata 10

How the Rain Fell

JEWEL

The rain fell. But I didn't care. The rain fell beneath us. The ambiance was well- set up. Everything was romantic. The athmosphere was at peace. He glared his eyes to me. His eyes were green. Everything felt so...... ROMANTIC. Is it just me or does everything I think about right now is romance?

But I sighed. God. I'm not ready to love again. It can't be. I swear. Now's not the right timing. I didn't know what to reply next. I just glared onto his green beautiful eyes. His fair skin was glowing and the cars passed by. The umbrella was protecting us from the rain.

"I've fallen for you. Just like how the raindrops fall.

I was touched by the words he said. I sighed again. I had no idea what to reply on. God , am I repeating everything? All eyes were on him. All I thought about was him. But I had to be honest.

"I'm really sorry. I can't. It can't be. I'-- " I walked away. I didn't know what to say.

I wandered the lonely sidewalk wondering what it felt like. Much the effort but I really can't. I don't even know what to do anymore. Ano nga ba ang sasabihin ko sa kanya kapag nakita ko siya muli. What will I say to him?

God.. If someone have done the thing I have done to Prince. I swear I'll kill myself. All I felt was opression. Nakakahiya jussko. Ano nga ba ang kanyang reaksyon kapag nakita niya ako muli? Pano ko nga ba siya i-faface? How will I face him?

Gosh. What a bitch. I'm such a fucking bitch. Why did I do that to him? I mean , I would really wanted to take it for granted but I'm not that kind of person. I'm a person who's trustworthy at honest ako. Hindi ako liar. Hindi ako plastic. If inaccept ko yung tinanong niya sa kin. Grabe. May attitude problem ako niyan. Di ako na-awa sakanya. Na awa ako pero I wanted to say the truth on what It felt. Hindi yung kukunin ko siya for granted. Mukha tuloy ako nyang LIAR. Which I'm not.

Na-awa talaga ako ng sobra.

Pinasalamatan ko nalang siya sana. Thanked him for offering me an umbrella which I didn't. Such an asshole , Jewel. Why did I frickin do it? What a selfish liar , Jewel. Grow up Jewel.

I cried a bit and I walked home. Home where peace is.

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Pumasok na ako sa bahay na basang-basa. Biglang umirap sa kin sa Mama na nakaupo sa sofa.

Sa sofa.

*flashback*

"Rigel , all I see is you" I told him. Magkalapit na kaming dalawa na nageexchange looks. He kissed me. We were bare naked. Nakahiga kami sa sofa and we had fun.

Just that. Memories

"Mahal na mahal kita" wika ni Rigel. Habang pinatuloy niya ang dapat niyang ginawa. Pinapawisan na siya pero hinahalikan ko siya ng sobra sobra. He was the only person to think about right now.

I kept on groaning. It was hard. He was good. Hindi ako nakasalita , dahil sa kanyang pagpapatuloy na parang hindi na nagsta-stop. His performace was good.

"S--o uhhh" I moaned.

Everything was inseparable. He pulled me closer to him and we kept going . Just like that. It wasn't easy to forget him. Hindi ko pa kaya. He had a good body. He had abs. He was guwapo.

But what is it with me? I don't like him anymore pero hindi pa rin ako nakaka-move on sa isang simpleng bagay. Amputa. Ang laki naman ata ng sentimental value niyang sofa na yan.

*end of flashback*

"Ma. Bilhan ko na lang kayo ng bagong sofa para sa sala. Huwag na yan eh" sabi ko sakanya.

"Bumihis ka na muna nga. Ang basa mo sobra. Please. Dry yourself off. You don't want your father to see you dressed like rags" Mama said.

Gash. Here we go again. Rejection at it's finest.

"Fuck ma" bulong ko.

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PRINCE

*flashback*

"I've fallen for you. Just how the rain drops fall" sabi ko kay Jewel na nguminingning ang kaniyang eyes. Her eyes were beautiful. She was perfect. She was a perfect princess for me. My PERFECT PRINCESS.

"I'm really sorry. I can't. It can't be. I'-- " she walked away. She walked away from me. She was gone with the wind. I was lonely. Hinayaan ko na siya. Kasi kapag when it comes to love , you are willing to accept the person's own perspective. Meaning na kaya mo siyang pakawalan. Pero wala pa kami sa time na ganyan. Right now. It's just as if I was busted by a crush. It wasn't a big problem for me. But it broke my insides , and it never helped me. Akala ko it was the death of me , pero di pa.

Not literally naman yung mamamatay as in DEATH OF ME. Pero yung death of me na rejection kind. Which happened. And broke me. I didn't know what to do next because I was broken inside. Wala na akong masabi. I tried to chase her but I can't. Because I love her , and when you love a person , you are willing to let the person go to choose her own path.

I can't stop thinking about that time.

All I thought about was everything that happened. Yun lang ang pumasok sa aking isip. Wala ng karaniwang bagay ang tumigil sa pag-iisip ko sa nangyari ngayon lang.

I cried while walking home. Binagsak ko yung umbrella sa side walk at iniwan na maapakan nang mga tao. Basang basa ako sa ulan. And , I was still broken inside.

Nothing ever changed that...

Walang pumigil sa akin nang bumagsak ang aking luha.

Binusted ako nang minamahal ko..

Iyakan ko na to.

And the rain fell , like my tears. They came crushing me down and ruining my goddamn entire life.

*end of flashback*

I was already at home. Nakahiga ako sa aking higaan at nakatingin sa pader still thinking about what I did wrong earlier.

I'm sure na wala naman akong masamang sinabi sa kanya. Ewan ko ba. Bad breath ba ako o something? Sira ba yung umbrella? Was I not her perfect prince?

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JEWEL

Tinulog ko nalang. Sumakit ang ulo ko. Ewan ko kung ano ang epekto nang mga ginawa ko kanina. Would I look like a bitch If I face him again?

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A/N : Thank you for reading! More chapters soon :-)