The Trapped Ones.

22: Prove.

                "It's not what you do or what you say that proves people wrong. It's believing in yourself. When people see that you believe in yourself, that only means that you've proved them wrong, that your not weak. That your royalty." - Tushari. 

Raina

"Have you ever felt alone, like for once you out the loop on somethin'?" Bryan asked as we drove to Tiff's house. "All the time." He sighed. "It's like I was always in control, you know? I always knew what the fuck was goin' on and right now, I feel like I'm a outcast." I rubbed my hand up and down his thigh. "You wanna know somethin'?" "What?" 

"That's how you made me feel." He looked at me briefly. "Don't feel so good does it?" "Nah. Not at all." I looked out the window, looking at the darkness. The stars were out tonight, and it made me wanna drive with the top down and the wind blowing through my hair. The wind kissing my skin as I drove. I loved nights like these. Nights like these made me peaceful, made me a different Raina. I turned back to look at a now sleeping Cameron. He was just talking our heads off, so it was no surprise that he was sleep. I kissed my first two fingers and touched his cheek with it. He smiled a bit in his sleep. I turned back around and continued to rub Bry's thigh. "Your a great mom Rai." I smiled and leaned my head back. "I'm alright." "Nah, your more than alright." 

"Why you bein' so nice to me all of a sudden?" "Maybe because I want to prove you wrong." I raised and eyebrow at him as his focus was still on the rode ahead of him. "Prove me wrong? How?" "Well, not just you, but everyone. They expectin' me to fail. I just wanna prove them wrong and you? I wanna prove to you that I can be the nigga you fell in love with years ago. I'm still here, just a little rough around the edges. I want to make you proud of me." What was with everyone wanting me to be proud of them today? I'd never understand why people cared what Raina had to say or if Raina accepted what they did. It wasn't in me to be the judging type and I wasn't gonna start judging anytime soon. Who am I to judge a soul.

I stayed quiet for the remaining of our car ride. It was nothing more to say, not that I was mad, it was more of me thinking about what was said. Proving me wrong would take him awhile and I think he already knew this. 

We arrived at the gated community where Tiffany lived. I'll never get why a single woman, with no kids lived all the way out here in a big ass house. Then again, she has a great amount of money that she worked hard for, so who could blame her. I stretched my pregnant body and waited for Bryan to get Cameron out of his car seat. I grabbed my purse and closed the door behind. Walking up the steps, I could feel someone behind me, probably Bryan. I looked into my purse for the spare key and unlocked the door. 

"Tiffany!" I yelled. "In the kitchen." I felt a kiss to my neck and turned around. Bryan held Cam in his arms with his on his shoulder. "Imma go put him in one of the rooms." I shook my head and walked toward the kitchen. I saw Tiffany sitting there with two bottles of wine, one was empty and the other one looked at if she was half way done. I shook my head and waddled over to her. I grabbed the wine glass and the two bottles. "What the hell Rai!" She slightly slurred. I poured out the wine from the glass and the bottle. I grabbed her a water bottle from the fridge and a Advil from the cabinet before waddling back over to her.  "Take this." She took the water and pill from me and swallowed it whole. 

"So why are you getting drunk now?" She sighed and looked up with me tears threatening to spill. "I, I'm pregnant. Well I'm not positive. I took a test and it was pretty cheap, it said I was pregnant. I have a appointment tomorrow." "What the fuck is wrong with you Tiffany! You may be pregnant and your drinking! You know you can't drink while you pregnant right?" "You can have wine Rai!" She yelled back. "Only one damn glass! Your so inconsiderate sometimes Tiff, I swear." 

"I don't want this baby Rai, I'm not ready! I'm not ready at all!" She cried in my arms. "Aren't you with Kirk? Isn't he happy?" "I caught that dog in bed with some man!" She yelled. I gasped. "Really?" "Yup." I laughed a little. "What's funny?" She glared. I held up my hands in surrender. "Not you baby, it's just that days before that "double date"  occurred, he tried to holla at me. Then I saw you with him and I knew you didn't know." "Why didn't you say anything Raina?" "Well, because I wasn't taking that man seriously and I'm damn pregnant. Me and Kirk lived right across the hall from each other at my old apartment. I went on a date or two with him, and honestly there was no connection." 

She nodded her head and looked towards the hall. I turned around and their stood my man. He walked slowly over to us. He sighed and sat down."So." They both gave each other nervous looks. I rolled my eyes at them. "Really? Ya' ll have known each other since the ninth grade. Ain't nothin' changed but blood." I said. The both nodded their head in agreement and hugged. "Daddy is such a asshole!" Tiffany yelled. Bryan nodded in agreement. "That's pops for ya." "So where's your mom?" She asked. I could see how tense he now was. Only I knew what happened to his mom, he wasn't the type to share the story. 

"She died when I was four. She was walking home after tellin' my father off,  she gave him back the car keys to the car he got her as a guilt present for fuckin' one of his hoes, I'm guessing. She was done with him, told em to keep the car because she didn't want to be in the relationship and he couldn't just buy her things so she could forget anymore. Some niggas walked up on her while she was walking away from the bus stop, they raped her and then ended her life. Only reason I found this shit out was cause of my grams, since she raised me and all. I guess that's why I never fucked with pops. I felt like he should've chased after her like a man should do if they so call say they in love. Maybe then she'd be here. 

"Don't that remind you of someone?" She looked at him and me both. 

"Nah, no one in particular." 

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-Tushari.