The Trapped Ones.

17. Rewind.

"Still Callin" - Dom Kennedy 

Raina

A month had flew by. I did find the time to analyze the situation and I can woman up and say I started the argument. I won't go around and say that I deserved to have had a bruised cheek because I didn't but what I will say is that I was wrong for stooping down to his level. I hit below the belt and that wasn't cool. Of course I wouldn't have some other man raising our kids, I ain't grimy like that. I was just speaking out anger and sometimes when you speak out of anger you tend to say things you obviously don't mean. Like I knew he didn't mean to raise his hand to me, but he did, it was a reaction. I still won't put up with it, but I understand the reasoning behind it. 

Yes he comes around, but we don't speak. I make sure Cameron's bags are packed and as soon as the doorbell rings he's at the door waiting for his dad. I don't even think we make eye contact anymore. I hate him. Not because of him hitting me, but for everything he put me through. I hate him for all the lies, I hate him giving someone else the love he was supposed to be giving me and most importantly, I hate that I still love him. Tragic right? I know, but hey, you can't help who you fall in love with, I don't think your supposed. I think you just  have to move on and wish for the best, and that's what I'm doing. I'm tired of crying over Bryan, when I know damn well Bryan ain't crying over me. 

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"Rai, come on! You haven't been out in days!" I groaned as my best friend pulled me out of my plush bed. "Tiffany, I don't wanna go! I'm fat and tired." She chuckled. "You'll love it! I promise." She walked to my closet as I stretched my limbs."What about Cam? I can't just leave him!" "Girl, you know my mama don't mind watching him, that's practically her grandchild." I shook my head knowing it was true. Ms. Linda loves Cam, she's the one that taught me and Bryan everything we knew about raising a child. I could see Tiffany's short arms throwing my clothes around looking for something. "What the hell Tiff! Your cleaning that up ASAP!" "Blah, blah, blah." I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms, tapping my left foot impatiently. "What you doin' just standing there. Hit the showers guhh, you stank!" I flicked her off and headed to the bathroom like she asked. I stood in front of the mirror just looking at my face. It looked tired and stressed, I could see the stress lines forming. I took a deep breath and turned on the water to the shower making sure it wasn't too hot, nor too cold either. I stepped in and let out a moan from the warm water hitting my skin. I lathered my body with my favorite mango body wash and washed my hair, since I hadn't done it in a week. 

"Rai hurry up Mama just left with Cam and we gon be late because of you!" I rolled my eyes as I turned off the shower and wrapped a towel around my body. I brushed my teeth and exfoliated my face before opening the door. Tiffany was on my bed already dressed in a little black dress that was showing all her curves. She had on some emerald green Gucci heels to go with the emerald green clutch she laid on the bed. I cleared my throat catching her attention. "Where did you say we were going again?" I rose an eyebrow curiously. She grinned and just rushed towards me with my dress and shoes. I examined what she picked out for me, and it was honestly very cute. Since I'm only two months pregnant, my stomachs not that visible so I could still wear body shaping clothes. I moisturized my body as quickly as I could before sliding on the royal blue, long sleeve Chanel dress that Tiff picked out for me. It had a swoop in the back and stopped at my knees. She chose some  Steve Madden Mary Jane black pumps since they had platform for me to walk. I did my makeup and curled my hair in big curls.

"You ready sexy?" Tiff asked smacking my butt, I shooed her hands away and laughed. "Yup, but where are we going?" "Just relax Rai. I got that all under control." I rolled my eyes as we walked downstairs careful not to fall in these six inch heels. "We takin' my car." "Why not mine?" "Cause you'll try to escape." I pouted. "No I won't." "Yes you will. " She unlocked the door to her Lexus letting me in as she started the engine. "Why would I want to escape? What are you up to Tiffany?" She let out and weird laugh. "Nothin." "I've known you since the ninth grade. I know when your keeping something from me." She rolled her eyes and proceeded to where we were going. "Just relax Rai."

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I watched as we pulled up to a dock. Where in the hell is this girl taking me? "If you wanted to kill me, you could've just done it at my house instead of bringing me all the way out here." I laughed. We got out the car and walked side by side. "Shut up, it's a  restaurant right around the corner." I just shook my head and followed her every move. Someone was calling as we walked. "Yea... We on the way..Don't rush me, we walking in right now." She hung the phone and gave the hostess her last name. I guess she made reservations. The hostess showed us to our table, but something was off. There were no people in here. Just us.  That was weird. "Where the people at Tiffany?" She shrugged not opening her big mouth. We got to the back where the hostess opened the two wooden doors and there they were. Kirk and Bryan. Bryan and Kirk? What the hell? Now I'm really confused. I walked into the room cautiously taking slow steps. 

"What's going on?" I asked no one in particular. "Well, I'm dating Kirk, and you  my best friend, your gonna make it work with your baby daddy." "Like hell I will! Take me home Tiffany, I'm not joking." She ignored me and walked over to Kirk. I stood as close to the door as possible. Byran's eyes were on me. I felt like I was under a microscope or something. I just stood there awkwardly as he made his move to me. I wanted to back up more, but I knew if I did, I'd just have my back against the wall. "You look beautiful Rai." I smiled politely, replying with a small 'thank you'. He grabbed my hand and walked us outside. "Why am I here?" "Cause I fucked up Rai and I never knew how bad it felt not to have you in my life for good. You know I didn't mean to hit you baby, I would never hurt you, but that shit you was spitting wasn't cool and you know it." I shook my head agreeing. "I agree, and I'm sorry Bry. I shouldn't have said that. I was just hurting and I wanted you to hurt just like me." "And I did, that shit you said pained me man." "I'm sorry."I whispered. He hugged me tightly as if he didn't want to let me go and I did the same. I don't want to let him go, but I know it's what I have to do, at least for a little while. 

"She's gone babe, I ended that shit." He smiled proudly. I smiled back. "That's good baby." "Yea, so I was hoping we could work this out, start fresh you know." As tempting as it sounded, I knew I couldn't. "I can't Bry." "Why not?" I sighed and rubbed his arm. "I just think we need our own time. We gotta fix ourselves before we fix us as a whole." He rubbed his face and sighed. "Yeah, you right, I can respect it." "You can still be my friend if you want." He kissed my cheek. "That's cool with me Rai."

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Love You All!

-Tushari

P.S. I won't be updating for the whole week. I gotta get my edumacation together. Lol :)