Things are meant to be (camren)

Chapter 23

Camila Pov

"Okay let's begin" Lauren said locking eyes with me. I was sitting there looking at her wondering what she is up too again, she is the most confusing person i have ever encountered in my life, one day she is telling me to fuck off and the other she wants me hang out, why i can't never understand her. I remember the other day i sent her a text she was ignoring me, i asked her why and she told me to fuck off, i went away and few hours later she suddenly texted me and talk normally and she even wanted to call, when i didn't reply she was back at be being rude. When iam around her iam always waiting for the moment when we will start to fight again let's be honest we fight a lot, iam not saying it's her fault or she is the bad one. But what iam saying is i still don't know what she wants. "Camilaaaaa" i could hear someone calling my name. "Huh what?!" I said looking around and i saw everyone staring at me like i was an alien or something. "Do you realize that we've been waiting on you, lauren asked you truth or dare a long time ago chica" mani said to me and she was laughing at how weird i was being.                                    "Oh let her mani she is not interesting anyways, all the people i text are way more  fun" lauren said to norma with mischievous look on her face, i suddenly felt my blood boiling out, and suddenly i had so much questions in my head, like who is she texting, does she like someone?, who was the last person she had sex with?, who she kissed recently? Is she thinking about someone right now. I had too much thing going on in my head. And i felt like i was transforming into someone else, when she said that comment. Iam not a jealous person but i can admit that right now i feel so much anger in me, and yet lauren is not mine. But i want to kill everyone who wants to touch her. So i decided to leave even tho i know i would ruin the night. I'm i selfish ? I feel sick, i feel like iam losing control, i like to have control over everything. And the fact that i can't control her, i can't control what she does and what she feels make me go crazy, i need to lock myself up. I know it's psycho to want to control someone. Love do that to me, love is supposed to be full of care and happiness but what it does to me is a pure poison, iam a monster because of it and even if she wanted to be with me, my love is toxic. So i went outside and i decided to go for a walk far away from my weakness ( lauren ), far away from everything. I was waking away and enjoying the peacefulness of the place, the sky was full of stars and the moon was shining bright everything looked so romantic for me. This would be a perfect date by the lac and laying on a blanket just enjoying everything.        As i was walking I heard footsteps behind me.       But i was scared to look behind, i was scared to face whoever it is, but what i was scared the most is to talk to lauren.                                               ********************************************A/N hey guys it's been a while but iam here :) just let me know if u have suggestions i will post another chapter this week promise