Forever

Chapter 13: Numb, Part 2

A/N: I AM SO SORRY FOR TAKING FOREVER WITH THIS BUT I JUST FOUND THE MOTIVATION TO WRITE FOR THIS!!! PLEASE ENJOY AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK

You trudged up the steps to your apartment, the weight of everything resting on every part of your body. Tom had his arm wrapped around you, supporting you up, while Chris and Sebastian fumbled with the keys at the entrance. You felt tears rolling down your cheeks as you made eye contact with Sebastian, his eyes still glassy and swollen since the last time you looked at him, in the hospital. You heard the lock click as you and Tom made it to the top, your front door swinging open. Chris tried to usher Sebastian in, but he stayed rooted at the door, unable to move. Chris left him there, and Tom made sure to stand in front of him as you made your way across the threshold. You shivered from the cold, only to feel Tom's arm envelop you again, as he walked with you towards your bedroom.

Once you were settled on the bed, Tom went to outside, to confront Sebastian. You could hear their muffled arguing, even when Chris had shut both the front and your bedroom door, not wanting you to hear what they had to say.

(Sebastian's POV, Tom speaks first here)

"Have you fucking lost it, mate? For the love of God, I don't know what you were thinking."

"I-I don't get how I'm the bad guy here? I saved her life, Tom. HER LIFE, for fuck's sake! And yet, here I stand, rooted to the spot. Every time she looks at me, all she sees is a fucking psycho, and I can't handle that."

"Fuck that, Sebastian. You're going to handle it, like the mature adult I know you want us all to believe you are!"

There was a long pause as the two men stood there, nostrils flaring as they tried to calm their breathing. Sebastian couldn't meet Tom's gaze – he was only 19, for crying out loud. Who does he think he is, yelling at Sebastian like that? He has a point, though. If I'm going to listen to anyone, of course it's going to be the one unbiased person here.

Tom reached out, gingerly placing his hand on Sebastian's shoulder. Sebastian met Tom's gaze, finally shifting his feet as he leaned back against the wall behind him, closing his eyes. He felt Tom pull away, only to hear him clear his throat.

"Sebastian, I know you know the reason why everyone – including Y/N – is upset with you. Hear me out; and I know you will, because I am the only sane, unbiased person in this entire situation. Tonight, tonight was something no one would have ever dreamed would happen in a million years. A young, slightly deranged fan brought a weapon to a film premiere. Fueled by her love for you, and her rage towards Y/N and Chad, she tricked them into coming near her, just close enough. You saw, and did what anyone would've done in a situation like that – you pushed them out of the way. At least, you thought you did. Sebastian, Sebastian, look at me!"

Tom growled the last words, as Sebastian closed his eyes, tears threatening to fall again as he remembered what he had done.

"From what everyone else saw, and saw again on social media, you only grabbed Y/N, pulling her to the ground, throwing yourself on top of her, leaving Chadwick alone as the woman pulled that trigger. Sebastian, fucking look at me! I know you love her, I know you do, but what you did, if that was out of love, that's not the kind of love Y/N would want. Hell, even I wouldn't want that. Tonight, you lacked compassion. You left the love of your life's love of HER life in the face of danger, because if someone was going to get shot, it wasn't going to be you, and it wasn't going to be her. And you should be ashamed of yourself. Don't, no, don't you dare try to fight this, Sebastian! You know what you did was wrong! You could've grabbed them both, you could've saved them both from this! But now look! Chad could very possibly die, and Y/N's suffering has only just begun! You need to realize what you did. What you've done, is beyond fucked up. No one knows how Y/N is going to handle this, any of this. If she finds it in her heart to forgive you, then so be it. But just know, you are so screwed if she pushes away."