Your Love's a Fucking Drag|| Ryden

5

The nurses forced me out of the room. I didn't know how  to feel about this whole situation. I had to get out of here asap before I saw anyone who knew dallon.
Dallon was a private doctor who some times worked at this hospital.

I don't know who he was working for today so I didn't want to risk running into him. Walking towards my car I pulled out my phone and dialed Ryan's sister's number.

The phone rang and rang before a loud voice answered from the other line.

"Yes?" She spoke up.

"I'll pick up the kids if you dont mind"

"That's fine just hurry up their acting.. weird" she complained.

I hung up, throwing my phone into the seat next to me.

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After picking up the kids I had chosen to take the kids to my mom's house. She loved the kids and I can't take them home so it was perfect. 

"Is dad okay?" I heard landon speak up from the back seat. I tried my hardest not to breakdown again. "he should be just fine" I coughed before continuing my focus on the road. After a good 20 minutes we made it to my mother's house. I rushed the kids out of the car and to the front door. I knocked on it twice before she finally answered.

"Mom, I can't express enough how thankful I am that you can watch them." She smiled, noticing my rushed attitude. 

"You're welcome" she replied before letting the kids into the house. I said goodbye to my mom and kids and hopped back into the car. I drove home, slightly anxious to see dallon again. This day is just a mess. when I finally got home I tried my hardest to look like nothing had happened. 

As I was picking up my mess from early this morning I heard a ding from my phone. I went over to where it was, picking it up to read the message. 

Dallon: I'm coming home early. I should be home by one. I hope you had a good day, love you ♡♡   

I smiled a little letting the text calm me for the moment. I set my phone down and continued cleaning. By the time dallon came home I had almost finished stress cleaning the whole house.

"Wow, have you been cleaning?" dallon asked as he set his jacket down on one of the couches. I could hear him groan loudly as he sat. "Being a doctor cant be that hard" I said before joining him on the couch. "well you aren't a doctor are you?" He said with a slight smirk. "wow Im offended!" I laughed at his remark. I was really trying to hold back my stress. 

My Ex-husband is in the hospital for getting beat. My kids have to stay with my mom because I don't want to tell my boyfriend and my boyfriend doesn't even know that I don't really love him like that. This is a total mess. 

After a few more minutes of me thinking and dallon relaxing he stood up and stretched. "I'm gonna go take a shower.. if you wanna join you can." He stuttered out the last part. We didn't do much of the intimacy thing and dallon tells me over and over that I have a nice body so he just enjoys seeing me naked.  Which I don't mind him thinking that because A)I do and B) We've never had sex once since we started dating a year ago and I atleast need to make him feel better about that. 

"Yeah I'll join. Just give me a minute" With that he left the living room and headed toward our room. I didn't want to give him any ideas but at the same time I needed a shower and damn I like seeing dallon naked too. After fighting myself over the shower topic I finally stood and headed to our room.  When I walked in I could already hear the shower running. I didn't hesitate walking into the bathroom and getting undressed. I take it back. I don't think I have a good body. Did I gain weight or do I just hate myself right now? 

I shook my head before quickly shouting out to dallon, "okay I'm coming in." 

"okay."

With that I slid the shower curtain open letting the warm air hit me immediately. Fuck, I love hot showers. I felt a little embarrassed as I stepped in, even if dallon wasn't even facing me. I closed the curtain behind me, letting myself take in my situation. I felt like I was cheating on ryan again, even if I use to shower with dallon all the time, this just felt different. After dal was done was his hair he turned to face me, wiping the water off his face and pushing the hair out of his face. When he could finally see me he smiled before looking me up and down. 

"damn, you look amazing right now" He said in a sexy deep tone. I blushed before making him move so I was under the water. I started washing my hair and as I did so I felt like dallon was staring at me the whole time. As I scrubbed shampoo into my scalp I began to find the silence awkward.
"how was work?" I asked, carefully rinsing the soap out of my hair.

"It was okay, I guess. You know same patients and shit like that." He started, " Not a lot of people can really afford private doctors so it's been a little slow lately" I frowned before facing him again. "I'm sorry." I spoke up before cleaning the rest of my body. "it's not your fault. I get good pay anyways so we aren't having any money problems." I let out a 'mhm' before finishing up. 

When we finished Dal handed my a towel before getting himself one. Oh my fucking god Dallon had the best ass to look at. As I was drying off I felt his arms rap around me from behind. I smiled at his warmth but blushed at the fact he was fully nude. 

"what are you doing?" I nervously asked before turning around and rapping my towel around my waist. 

" well I mean you've been pretty stressed lately so I just wanted to see if you want to.. you know?.. do anything?" My face turned a crimson color at the question. I knew he would ask again but I still don't want to let him fuck me then let him learn all my secrets later on. If anything, I wanted him to know everything before we did anything just in case he wanted to break things off because I had lied to him.

"Dal, I don't know" (how but they found me) 
" Come on bren, we never do anything exciting." Dallon said as he inched closer.
"Dallon, I think we should wait till marriage" I quickly blurted out trying my hardest to avoid the situation.

"Then let's get married! I just want to show you that I really do love you" I was shocked by this. Married? I don't ever want to do that with anyone but Ryan.

"Dallon, you can show me love in other ways" I suggested, handing Dallon his towel. He grabbed it, wrapping it around his waist.
"No matter what I do you never seem to love me fully" he cried out before he started sobbing. I've never seen him like this. This just reminds me of Ryan. I don't want to be reminded if him.

   I went over, pulling Dallon into a tight hug. He didn't hug back he just cried more.
"I'm so sorry Dallon" I whispered out.
"No, no. I'm sorry I just- I'm not good enough for you I understand" he cried out a little more. How am I suppose to get out of this one. My life is slowly falling more apart even more.

"Dallon, stop Please!" I said into his chest but still he didn't stop he just continued sobbing. The sounds of his cried made me feel threatened and worried. I do love Dallon. I swear I do.

"Dallon, I want to get married" I choked out. His crying calmed and he answered with a soft tone. " R-really?"

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A/N I'll edit this late or something like that.