would you still Be There?

would you still be there?(cashby fanfiction)

Austin's POV

Warped Tour was finally over. 

It went great and the fans were amazing and,so supportive as always. This year's Warped Tour had the biggest outcome and, it was a great time to bond with other bands without them showing up at your house unexpectedly. Most of the time, there was only one thing I could think about. Alan.. All through Warped Tour it was like I was someone else. I got nervous around him, I've never been nervous around him at all until this year. I keep having to fight the thoughts that I was gay. I know that our fans had made a ship called Cashby between me and Alan, and I think I'm starting to get the feelings for Alan, Even thought I wouldn't like to admit it.
I couldn't give into the feelings alan was my bestfriend he was my ginger princess, and even if i did like him i know he doesnt like me back. I grunted in frustration putting my head in my hands 

My phone vibrated in my lap i looked down to see who would be up at 4:00am on a monday after warped tour 

I typed in my password and it was a text ..from alan..

From:my ginger princess

"hey can i come over?"

Why the hell was he asking? He always showed up without telling me.  I gave a questioning looked and, hit reply.

"yeah you already know that" i hit send and put my phone on the coffee table infront of me

i propted my self on the couch and turned on the tv it was nice to relax after a huidge show 

i fliped through the channels but no matter what i couldnt get the though of alan and me kissing out of my head what was wrong with me today

ALAN POV:

i couldnt stay alone toinight i was going to have a break down and the only one who understand is... 

Austin..

I picked up my phone and went to contacts and hit suidggys dadda then hit send message

"hey can i come over"and hit send

i know hes gonna think somethings up but i couldnt tell him i am on the verdge of tears and i just wanted to die i needed someone to be there to watch over me just for tonight. I haven't had a break down in a few months and noone has seen the breakdown... what if he thinks im stupid or a freak... 

my phone buzzed i looked down to see a message from austin i hit enter 

"yeah you already know that"

that was the awnser i neeeded to hear i grabed my keys and, my phone charger.Before walking out the front door. I had in my mental cheaklist i went over everytime i left the house. 

I locked the door and headed to my car the depression was hitting me harder than ever. I wanted to crash my car into a semi head first and just die ,but i couldnt i need austin i need for him to tell me his feeling i think its stupid for me to like him. I know that utter perfect man named Austin Carlile would never want a ginger that only wanted to be a cat.

i Wanted to  call him mine. I didnt want to see him cry over gizelle again. She was a bitch for what she did to him. she used him and, mentally abused him for her her own wanting.  Alpl this time using him not giving a shit about him. If i had him i would treat him the best i could and be there but i doubt ill ever get that chance..thankfully though thoughts of Austin had kept a smile on my face and, my mind away from what was going on in mind .

I pulled up in his drive way and, turned off the car i tryed to pull my self together before i seen him.

No gay thoughts I said to my self I pulled the keys out of the ingition and got out of my car , closing the  door shut and hit the lock button on my key and, headed to the front door holding back tears...