would you still Be There?

what was that?

AUSTIN'S POV:

I looked down at alan.

He stoped crying and, it kinda scared me. I looked at him. He was asleep from crying.  I looked at him He was so handsome and, he looked so peaceful when he was sleep. I've never seen him cry and, it made  my heart sink. He was truely upset about Ashlee. 

I looked at the clock on the wall it was 6:45 am. I needed to go to sleep but, I didnt wanna move. He was alseep on me but, i wanted the warmth of my bed.  I gently slid to the side of  the couch with alan still resting on me.

I softly moved his head and put it on the pillow I was sitting on. I looked at him. I hoped he was still asleep. He snored a bit. I smiled and turned off the tv and kissed him on the forehead, and walked into the kitchen reaching in the cubbored to get my heart medician. I filled a glass full of water and placed the little read pills on my tounge and pressed the glass against my lips  swallowing the pills. I could finally go to sleep.

I walked up the stairs gently trying not to wake Alan. I got to the top of the stairs and walked to my bedroom door  pushing it open. As I  ran to my bed  and jumped on the bed. That's one of the things I hate about tour is i miss my bed.  I crawled under the covers and snuggled with one of the many pillows eon my king sized bed.  I layed my head down ,closing my eyes and though" why did alan come to me him and aaron are like best friends" 

I couldnt help but to wonder. I cant help but, to think about alan tonight wasnt like every other...

  Alan had stayed many of nights over here, but tonigh it was diffrent. i couldn't admit that i had feelings for alan. He was there through everything that had happened to me in the last few years, and I couldn't thank him enough for it.

  I needed to sleep and get my mind off Alan. I cleared my mind and slowly started to drift off.

 Then i herd a scarem that made me sit up in bed...

"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!"Alan screamed.

Holy shit someone is breaking into my house!  

I threw the covers off of me and, headed towards the stairs. 

I ran down the stairs so fast my feet couldnt keep up with me.  I about fell on my ass ,but I made it down. I ran through the kitchen and, seen noon.

 The screaming contuined.. 

Alan...

I ran to the couch to see him curled up in a ball crying and,screaming.  He was still sleep. I sat on the couch and kneeled down at the side of the couch he was shaking.. badly. 

I rubed his arm ,shaking  him a bit .

His eyes slowly opened as he seen me. I whiped his tears away from his eyes. 

"whats wrong Alan?"

"what do you mean?"He mumbled

 I looked at him astonished "Alan you were screaming and shaking... what was going on in that mind"

"it was just a night mare again"He said 

I looked at him "your sleeping with me so, I dont about kill myself again from falling from the stairs"

Alan nodded and smiled a bit sleeply.

ALAN'S POV:

The dream wasn't going away. She was hauinting me.. 

"your a stupid ginger boy that nonne will want"

 I screamed and started to shake. 

"your worthless I dont know how you have even made it this far"

The tears started to pour down my face. 

I felt a Hand on my arm and ,then a little shake 

I slowly opened my eyes to see Austin.

  I wasnt screaming in my dream. I was screaming out loud. He ran his hand on my face wiping tears from my eyes.

"whats wrong Alan?"

"what do you mean?"Imumbled I was playing stupid because I didn't want him to know .

he looked at astonished "Alan you were screaming and shaking... what was going on in that mind"

"it was just a nightmare again"I said I didn't want him to know what it was about. 

He looked at me  "your sleeping withh me so I dont about kill myself from falling from the stairs"

 I smiled a bit and noded Austin held out his hand for me to get off the couch. I took it and got pup i followed him into the kitched and, up to the stairs as he opened his door to the master suite. I walked throught the door and, got on the to the side with the covers not messed up. I crawled under the covers and laid my head on the pillows next to austin. I seen him climb into bed the little light from the sunlight .i could see his mucles and his tatoo covered body the sexyness that is austin.  He pulled the covers over him as he put his arm behind me. 

"you had that nightmare after I moved so you can sleep back on me and hopefully thatll stop them"

I grined and scooted towards him and layed my head on his chest.

i havent ever cuddled witph a guy other than him and my ex but for some reason my body wanted to show him that i had feelings for him.

I couldn't do that I couldn't ruien our friendship that we had but, I needed that bond in a relationship..

I couldnt tell him..

I was so tired I was fighting my eyelids and my feelings I herd austin start to hm when you cant sleep at night and that did it his hums slowly lullbyed  me to sleep....

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