would you still Be There?

These thoughts

AUSTINS POV:

I herd a knock on my door ,it must be alan i got up and Walked to the door and, looked in the mirror and fixed my hair before awnsering the door. I slowly opened the door to revel the sexist ginger that i knew.

"hey Alan"

"hey Austie"

I held open the door and, I do got to admit that i did stare at his ass while he walked to the couch. I shut and locked my door and, fowllowed alan over to the couch.

Alan looked at the tv and, seen I was watching family guy.

"so this is what you've been doing since you got home?" he chuckled that cute laugh that he had.

I shugged my sholders and, smiled he layed back on the couch and put his feet up on the table.

"since when do you ask to come over?" I questioned

he looked at me "i though you could be with a girl or something who knows i thought that i should ask sheesh"

I smiled but, he didn't smile the smile that i knew. It was fake it was ment to make it look real but after being around him so long you could tell that the smile he showed was not a real one.

I pushed his shoulder a little bit.

"whats wrong ally cat?"

He looked at me with tears in his eyes and, shook his head.

"nothing"he replied

I havent seen him cry other than once in my years of knowing him. I grabed him in a bear hug and, rubed his back.

"shhh dont cry whats going on?"

He sobed into my shoulder. I contuined rubbing his back with my grip on him.

"I can't take it anymore aussie. I can't you know how bad I don't wanna be here and, just wreak into a semi making everyone's life better"Alan spoke softly

My heart sank. How could he think that? How could he not see that i cared about him more than I should?

I pushed his shoulder back softly and, looked in his green eyes that were filled with tears.

"Don't say that I care about you alot. Your my best friend,my bro, and my singer. I want you to stay in my life. I need you in my life alan. Don't think tlike that what even started this?"

"Maddie " he spoke softly.

His fucking slutty ex. What was she doing fucking up things again. She just talked to him to mess with his mind and, play games that He couldn't deal with.

he sobbed loud.

I didnt want to say anything because i knew how much it hurt he just needed to cry it out and, im glad that i was the one to be there. being his shoulder to cry one because he was mine after gizelle.

it breaks my heart to see him like this bu,t all i could do whas to hold him.

I rubbed his back wispering softly "shhh itll be okay ally cat"

ALAN'S POV:

I walked up to the front steps and, knocked i herd him get off the couch head towards the door. I put my head down and, the fake smile i had on .

I herd the door open and, i looked up to see the most handsome , udderly perfect guy. I knew

"hey Alan"'Austin said

I smiled finally since we had been off tour and a few days before that

"hey Aussie"

He smiled and, opened the door so i could come in.I walked to the couch and sat down i seen that he was watching family guy like always.

"this is what you have been doing since we got home " I chuckled

He shugged his shoulder and, gave me that cute "yeah oh well "look.

I put my feet up on the table and looked at the tv fighting back urges to cry and, fighting the tears buliding up in my eyes.

He looked at me "so since when do you ask top come over?"he questioned me. I knew this was comming.

"I thought you might be with a girl or something so i asked sheesh" I threw that fake smile I had at him and, I think he seen through it.

He pushed my shoulder a little bit I looked him dead in the eyes.

"whats wrong alley cat?"He asked

I fought tears and I fought the highness in my voice.

"nothing"

It didnt work tears fell down from my face. i couldn't fight it anymore. He looked at me for a split second and, wraped his big tattooed arms around me. I couldn't take it when he wraped his arms around me and, rubed my back i cryed harder.

"shhh dont cry whats wrong?"He whispered to me.

I couldn't explain this it was to hard right now..

"I can't take it anymore aussie you don't know how bad I wanted to wreak into a semi and make everyone's life better" I said muffled into his chest.

I could feel him looked at me for a minuet then he put his hands on my shoulder and, pushed me back so he could look oat mpy face i felt so ashimed for crying infront of him let alone on him

"Don't say that I care about you alot. your my best friend ,my bro ,and my singer. I want you to stay in my life. I need you in my life alan. Don't think like that. what even started this?""He spoke with worry in his voice.

I burried my face back into his chest and, cryed more mumbling

"ashlee"

Ashlee is my last ex. We broke up but, she constantly make me feel like shit and, have break down today. she made me feel like all shit when she said

"You wont find anyone because Your a fat whinny ginger that noone will want because all you are is a pain in the ass. I hope you die in a wreak or, you cut to deep and, die beacuse noone wants you here.Austin is only friends with you because he feels bad for your ass"

The memory of that ran through my head and, I cryed harder Austin had nothing to say he held me tightly without letting go and, rubbed my back. While I sat there and cryed till I couldn't cry anymore I cryed till I slowly dose off on his chest....