Size Matters

Chapter 34 - Does he......like me?

I stared at him for a long time, wondering if he was serious or not. Is he joking or what? 

"Uh...what?" I said, confusion written all over my face. He just stared back at me, not at all surprised that I was confused.

"Jenny." He said "She slapped me." He pointed at the side of his face that had the red mark on it that I hadn't noticed until now for some reason. Well that was definitely not what I was expecting.  I furrowed my eyebrows and glanced at the mark. 

"Jenny did that?" I said loudly, pointing at his face while a few students looked our way and Justin grabbed my hand and shushed me loudly. I felt a blush heat up my cheeks and I snatched my hand our of his grip. This made him sigh and retract his hand. 

I tucked my hair behind my ear and cleared my throat.

"So uh....why would Jenny hit you?" I asked him confused. It was very hard to believe. Jenny would never hit someone. I've never seen her even raise her voice at somebody let alone put her hands on someone. What could drive her to doing something like that??

"Because I wasn't at your party." He said, and I looked up at him with confusion written on my face. "That kiss meant that you were definitely there." I thought until I remembered that my friends dont know that he showed up. They still don't know he came. They think that he totally ditched me on my birthday.

"They all thought I wouldn't come. They were all thinking it in the back of their minds but Jenny...Jenny was different...She had hope in her heart that I would be there for you...like you were for me...but...I failed her.." He admitted softly, looking quite sad. I stared at him for a long time, as he looked down at his shoes and I looked down too, not knowing what to say.

"She stook up for me...and I should have appreciated that more.." He said softly as I looked at him, indifferently. I had no idea Jenny felt that way. And I had no idea how much it mattered to Justin.

"It-Its not your fault.." I started to say until Justin stopped me.

"No, it is. Everythings my fault! I keep screwing these up with you!..Like how I'm doing right now. I didn't even bring you here to talk about Jenny..." He exclaimed, raising his voice and I stared at him, listening.

"Well then...what is it?" I said, anxious but also worried about what he was going to say.

"...That kiss." He said as soft as ever and I could immediately feel the emotions I felt when it happened and I knew my cheeks were warming.

"..What about the kiss?" I asked, trying to stay calm but knowing that I was going crazy inside.

He paused for a long time and I could see his cheeks darken red.

"..It was real..." He said.

I felt my heart stop and I stared at him for a long time, trying to really grasp what he just said.

My mind couldn't comprehend it.

It was real

It was real...

The kiss...was real..

"...Really?" A whisper escaped my mouth, my voice cracking a little as I stared into his eyes, trying to see if he really truly means it.

And he does.

"Yeah...Really..." He said, quickly, his face a dark shade of red and his hand rubbing the back of his neck. I stared at him with a face shrouded with redness and complete happiness.

It was real...

It meant something to him..

I was wrong!

I laughed. I've never been so happy to be wrong before in my life.

Justin kissed me for real! It wasn't fake. He wasn't trying to mess with my head. He wasn't trying to make me a lovesick puppy! He did it because...he likes me...

He likes me?...

"You...You..like me?" I asked the most hardest question to ask someone ever, my heart pounding in my chest and my books, barely able to stay in my hands. He looked up at me, stared into my eyes for a long time, almost like he was making sure.

"Yes I do...I like you Ebony." He said with certainty and all those bad moments started to flash everywhere in my mind. The rejection, the humiliation, the frustration, the crying, the heartbreaks...all of those things replayed themselves in my head and all I could think about was how far I've come. How far I've come since those times and I realize now that...if you truly want something..you never let it go..because if you do you might never get this moment...

And I'm so happy I never let go...

Because this moment is what I've been waiting for since the day I told him.

I never thought it would come...

I started crying...

Justin looked at me as he heard the sound of sniffling and panicked.

"W-What are you doing? Why are you crying??" He asked, nervously rasing his hands up in an awkward way to comfort and I laughed a little, pressing my arm over my teary eyes.

"Y-You I-Idiot...its about t-time.." I whimpered out softly, crying tears of joy and relief and I listened to my heart beat through my chest.

"Heh...Sorry I took so long.." He said softly and I had a feeling he was smiling. I smiled too, through my tears and I could feel the touch of a hand against mine and without a second doubt, I grabbed it. I knew it was his. It was small but...

It still felt like a boy's..