Size Matters

Chapter 35 - What now?

It stayed in mine for a while and soon our fingers intertwined. It sent shivers through my spine knowing that we were actually holding each others hands like this.

I never thought this day would come.

The day where Justin says he likes me.

I can't believe he likes me! Mr. Martin was right. Omg Mr.Martin was right! All along. That's why Justin isn't nice to him. Its because he likes me and I liked Mr.Martin!

Well not anymore! Now the only guy I'll focus on is him. The boy I'm holding hands with.

"So..." I said while wiping stray tears from my eyes.

"What happens now?" I asked happily as I looked down at him, knowing what answer I was hoping for.

He stared at me for a while, not really getting what I meant, or so I thought.

"What?" He said, one of his eyebrows raised and I laughed, my hand squeezing his softly.

"Well...now that we've both confessed our feelings for each other...what do we do now?" I asked excitedly, a smile wide on my face as I stared down at him. He just looked up at me, and then gently slipped his hand out of mine and rubbed his neck.

"Uhhh..." He said and turned around to look behind him and my smile started to falter.

"I mean...I like you Justin...and you like me so don't you want to be together?!" I yelled loudly, my smile finally falling and he looked around, there was no one there though.

"Yes! I want to but...I thought...we were going to keeping this private." Justin said, like it was something I was already supposed to know. I took a step back from him, staring him down, shaking my head.

"...Y-You kiss me...and tell me you like me...and now you want to keep it private?!" I ask, knowing deep down that this was too good to be true. He sighed and I rolled my eyes, about to turn around when I felt him grab my arm, making me stay in place.

"I didn't mean it like that..." He said softly and I looked at him.

"I was just thinking that...maybe if we try this...alone...without anyone else knowing and it works...then we can be public about it." He explained and I thought about it in my head for a moment and it actually didn't sound too bad. It was a step...I guess...and one step is better than zero.

"So...no one will know?" I asked, rubbing my arm softly and not looking directly at him.

"No.." He admitted and I sighed, but then I felt his hands take hold of mine and hold them between us.

"But we will know..." He said softly and my eyes moved to him.

"And that'll be a good thing." He admitted with certainty and I could feel my cheeks start to become red and I couldn't help but smile a little.

He was right. I guess it would be better to not tell anyone about this yet until we truly know what "this" is. I mean, I know exactly what I want this to be, but I don't know if he knows what he wants this to be.

He is Justin and one thing I know about Justin is that he is the most densest boy I've ever met.

It'll take him some time to finally admit what he wants? The thing is...how much time will he need and...am I willing to wait?

"I'm glad you wore it.." Justin said before I could answer those questions and I looked at him.

"What?" I asked him confused and he looked down at my wrist and rose my hand higher and saw the piece of jewelry hanging from it.

The bracelet.

"It looks good on you." He said, staring into my eyes, not even looking at the bracelet and I found myself blushing darkly, and looking down smiling.

Yeah...Yeah I think I'm willing to wait.