There Is So Much Going In My Mind .....

I did it 😁😁

I woke up early in the morning and tried not to remember the things which had happened but do these stubborn tears ever listen to us ....

Today we had our last examination and that meant I just have to stay strong for one more day and then holidays ; it sounds so easy and simple to do but Easier said than Done .

After a deep breath I got up and wiped my tears away and kept the brown packet which had a sparkling golden ribbon tied on top of it ,
Inside my bag , with a simle which wanted to come on my face but it somehow failed to do so .

As soon as came to school I my eyes only lingered to find Lasy ( Though there is nothing new in it ) but today is her Birthday and I am not looking forward to spoil it at any cost .

I saw her and then with a smile I walked towards her . She looked at me with hopeful eyes expecting me to break the silence and say what she wanted to hear .

Then I said

" Hello! "

She stared at me for a moment and then and then said

" Hey ! Well what is the date today ? "

I knew she wanted me to say so I said

"Umm I don't remember....
Why ? Anything special "

She looked as if she was going to burst out of anger but before she utter a single word I cut her off by saying

"Oh yeah of course I know what today is ....."

She had a sudden sparkle in her eyes and said

" That is ..............."

I had a mischievous smile on my face and said

" Today is our last Examination "

and couldn't control anymore and burst out laughing ........

She gave me a deadly glance and then I managed to stop laughing and said

" Oh yeah Happy Birthday !! "

She changed her direction and folded her arms just like a toddler .

Then I said

" Oh may be I gotta take the gift back home "

And then just the way kids turn happy on listening the name of candies or sweets that is exactly how she behaved. Then I handed her the gift and with a lot of efforts convenced her not to open in the school and she somehow agreed .

Then while going to the examination hall I was happy about the fact that Lasya wasn't able to know and that means that I can do it ; I took a deep breath and proceed towards the hall .

Everything was going as planned I was satisfied after submitting the paper and then when I waited for Lisa ; we knew each other but became friends this year and all thanks to the section changing thing it actually worked pretty well for me.

While I was waiting for Lisa I saw Anderson and then thought that I was missing out something. ...

I whispered to myself
Focus Eri ...
Come on what am I missing out ......
Think Erica think .....

And that's when I realised that he had to return me My book which he had borrowed as he wanted to read it . Though I didn't want to give it to Him
but then I don't know why I end up helping such people out .

I went towards him and stared at him for a moment hoping that he would simple return my book and we part our ways soon .

But he was none other that Jay Anderson why will he keep things simple ?!?!

He looked at me asked " So ? "

I had an angry look on my face what do you mean by So ?? You took My book and instead of being thankfully and returning it you have no idea about why I am here.
Great !!
Simply Great !!

I tried to be as calm as possible and said " My book precisely the story book which I gave you "

He said " Oh that "

Obviously that otherwise why on Earth will I come to you ? And logically you should have been the one to come to me and return it but right now I decided to Focus on my book .

Then I realised he wasn't there !!!
I fail to understand what is his problem ?
Then I did something which I never wanted to but had no choice except to do it and that was to follow him this is just so bad ......

I asked him several times to return it back to me but now Enough is enough then I grabbed the handle of the bag which gave him a jerk and he had to lean backwards because apparently I wasn't that tall though I will soon be .

Then I looked straight into his eyes and said " I want my book back "

Then he turned around and said " Let me see "

I kicked him still holding his back to make sure that he doesn't run .

He looked in the bag and said " Oh see it isn't there"

Somehow I had this feeling that he has it and then I looked in the bag and found it but I even took out his bottle and said " Yeah sure " my tone filled with sarcasm .

Then I saw Lisa and Lasya and with his bottle in my hand I approached towards them and both of them gave me a look which questioned what was that and then I said " A pretty long story but I will definitely tell but not now ."

He said nothing about his bottle but I guess he knew that it won't work but that silence gave me a fear that if he won't take it back then What ?

We were standing and talking about random things and I don't know why I could only think of Bruno and that's not what I had planned and that's when one of Lasya's friends had bought a cake so we went and did the cake cutting . I tried really hard to smile but it was slowly fading and no I can't let that happen now .

As soon as the cake cutting was done and I saw that Lasya was a bit busy and crowded I left that place ... I know I should have been there and she might even find me but I had to do it I just had to .

Lisa didn't come even though I insisted a lot but she had her own reasons on which I had to agree so I went back to her because I didn't want to feel weak specifically right now and I don't want to lie so the only way out was to deviate my thoughts .

We walked in the corridor and started to discuss about the paper this was working but somehow really slowly and I gotta figure out what to do before I lose control on things ....

After a while she told me that Mathew and Anderson are behind us I looked at them and then slowly smiled and said let's get lost .

Lisa and I gave each other evil smiles and started to walk faster but both of us knew that we had to return but so easily......... No way

Then finally we stopped as it was time to go back to our buses and both of them were still following us .

Then they came but we even acted as if they weren't visible to us then after a lot of arguments and taking my revenge completely and with a satisfied feeling I returned the bottle back and when I reached home I realised that the day wasn't that bad I did quite well and

I have finally grown up ; I did it even though I felt like I won't be able to but at the end nobody knew and that is what matters. ..
and 1% credit can even go to Mathew and Anderson for this because they were great deviations but I will only give them 0.25% credit or may be 0.50% because at the end I really fail to understand what pleasure can someone derive in annoying the other person .....

With a new hope and feeling proud about myself I finally knew that as we turn big and old there are so many hidden stories and pain hidden in a beautiful drawer called ' Smile'