Earth To Bellamy 》Bellamy Blake X Reader [ON HOLD]

Shots

You walk into the garage and see Bellamy and some of the others you had heard on the radio during the meeting.
"Knock knock." You say loudly over the chatter as you skip into the room. "Woah, lot of firepower there." You gasp and smile as you see all the guns.
"Let's hope we don't need it." Bellamy says in a serious tone, scaring you a tad.
"What's the mission?" You ask, curiousness and excitement fill your voice.
"Planning for our future." He answers in a strict voice and a hard look, shooting down all your happy.
"Really? Because this looks like our past." You groan.
"Listen Kesia, we're building a life here_"
"I hope you don't mean we're as in me and you together, because with the way your acting we're not going to be building anything." You growl. Bellamy rolls his eyes and hands some more guns to someone.
"There's no point in trying to make peace with people who only understand war." He explains.
"Dang right." Hannah says from behind him. He walks away and you run after him.
"Haha, cute. Did you spend 20 minutes rehearsing that little quote in your head." You say sarcastically.
"I'm not fighting with you Kesia." He groans and throws some guns in the rover.
"Really? Because that's exactly what you're doing." You say aggrivatedly to his back. He turns around and you have to look up to meet the frustration in his eyes.
"I'm not doing this right now." He growls and pushes you to the side before walking away.
"Obviously you do, or else you wouldn't be going to destroy innocent lives that you don't want to kill." You immediately regret saying it. You basically just told him that you heard the meeting. He stops in his tracks before turning around and walking back towards you. He grabs your arm and pulls you off so no one can hear you talk.
"Who told you." He growls. You can see anger covering his eyes, and a little bit of fear cowering in the back trying not to be seen. You take advantage of the sight of his fear.
"I'm a sergeant. You think I'm not gonna know when someone's going outside the walls." You smirk. He pulls on your jacket, lifting you up a bit.
"I'm serious Kesia."
"What are you going to do? Lock me up with the grounders?" You say sarcastically.
"Maybe I will." He barks.
"Then do it." There's a moment of silence before he lets you go. "Not as tough as you pretend to be, huh?"
"You should go. If Pike finds out that you know, he'll kick you off the guard..... or worse." Bellamy warns.
"No. I'm coming with you." You say as you walk past him.
"I'm not letting you risk your rank or your life Kesia." He says annoyed as he grabs your arm.
"Then maybe you should." You glare at him before pulling your arm out of his grip. He shakes his head before walking back over to the rover.
"Let's move out!" He orders. You grab a gun and wait to jump into the rover. Your dad walks into the room and you give him a nod, I've got this, before jumping in. Bryan finally gets inside too and Bellamy shuts the door.
"I hope you know what you're about to do." Monty says.
"Takes a grounder to kill a grounder." You say. You look beside you at Bellamy who gives you an are you sure about this look. You give him a nod. "I'm only here so you'll feel bad about what you've done afterwards." You whisper so only he can hear.
"I'm doing what's right for our people." He whispers back.
"Then why does it feel so wrong?"
"The right choice always feels wrong."
"So I felt wrong." You whisper. He tries to make out something but nothing comes out. You shake your head and look away.
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Time Skip

You come to a stop and you're the last one out of the rover. You didn't like any of this, but you had to gain Pike's trust.
"Hello! Anyone here?" Bellamy calls out right as you jump out of the rover and in to the cold rain. You cower behind Bellamy as you walk through the village. You hear a horse neigh off in the distance.
"Contact. Two o'clock." Bellamy tells to the rest of the group as he grabs your hand and drags you along with him.
"BELLAMY! GET THEM OUT OF THERE!" Octavia screams from off in the distance. She's so far away, her screams sounds like whispers. "IT'S A TRAP!"
Fire warms your cold and wet body as a stack of wood bursts into flames. The next few moments are chaos and all you know is that the smoke is poison and Monty had run into it. You wait in anticipation as Bellamy holds you behind him. Monty emerges with Monroe and you and Bellamy go and pull them away from the smoke. You help carry Monroe to a rock. She gasps for air as the poison seeps into her lungs. After a while her breathing stops all together. Bellamy calls her name, just like he did with Sterling, like if it was going to bring her back.
"Your sister did this." Hannah accuses.
"How did she know?" Bryan asks.
"We have traitors in our camp." Hannah says. Bellamy turns his head towards you and gives you a look of fear. You try to keep a face of false shock.
"She told you." Bellamy says, drawing everyone's attention. You nod your head, even though it's a lie. He hangs his head down before punching the rock beside Monroe.
"Bellamy stop!" You say as you pull him back.
"I CAN'T LOSE YOU BOTH!" He screams. You look at his fist, it's covered in blood.
"Shhh, I'm not going anywhere, I'm on Pike's side." You lie. You put your arms out to hug him but he walks away. "I don't know who she's working with, but she's my friend. If I can convince her I'm on her side maybe she'll tell me who's giving her information." You add to the lie.
"How do we know you're not working for them already?" Hannah questions.
"After Octavia told me this, I decided to come and help." You add on. "And it doesn't matter, what we need to worry about now is how we're going to get Monroe back to the rover and avoid the grounders at the same time." Hannah glares but gives a nod and helps Monty carry the body back to the rover. You hold Bellamy back and wait for everyone else to head off before walking with him. You look at his hand.
"Why do you do this to yourself?" You ask like a mother talking to her three year old son.
"Who really told you?" He asks and tries to pull his hand away.
"It's none of your business." You bark and pull his hand back, making him wince. "And you're not going to do anything so what's the point of telling you."
"I promise I won't tell Pike about you, just tell me and I'll_"
"I'll tell you as soon as you stop trying to kill innocent grounders." You bark making him quiet. "That's what I thought."
"Kesia_"
"Yep, because you acted like an idiot you severely bruised your knuckles. Looks like someone is going to have to lay off work for a week or two." You interrupt him. "Once we get to the rover I'll have to bandage_"
"Kesia stop." Bellamy says making you stop walking. "Can you stop playing doctor and listen to me?" He begs.
"I am."
"Who_"
"I said I'm not telling you! Period, end of discussion."
"That's not what I was going to ask." He groans. "Who's Jacob?"
"He's a good friend of mine. Why?"
"Okay. No reason." He simply says.
"Really? That's it?" You question. "So you're not going to get jealous or something?"
"Jealous?" He laughs. "Why would I be jealous of a nerd with red hair?"
"What's wrong with people with red hair? Huh?" You laugh.
"N- nothing." He chuckles. You both stare at each other for a moment and a smile crawls across your face.
"You're a good friend, Bellamy." You say. You immediately see rejection drown his face. Oh no, did you just friend zone him. Ugh, it's like we're back at the beginning where he silently stares at you. You reach the rover and hop in.
"Took you two long enough." Monty groans. You roll your eyes and close the door before sitting down and bandaging Bellamy's hand.
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Time Skip
Arkadia

"..and then he got so wasted, and we had to take the drink out of his hand and scold him like a child." Danny finishes and the entire group laughs. Macallan was now assigned the night shift, which means you can hang out with his friends and he wouldn't have a clue.
"I don't remember that." Jacob explains.
"Yeah, because you were wasted, dude!" Sam laughs. You put your cup to your mouth and expect Monty's homemade moonshine to flow through your lips, but instead you get a mouthful of nothing.
"I'm going to get some more shine, want some refills?" You ask.
"Yeah, I'll come with ya." Jacob smiles as he gets up and walks with you outside. You go and fill up your cup as you look at the stars.
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"Wow, Leo looks so different from here."
"You're naming constellations?! I can't even find the Ark!"
"You see that big bright star lookin' thing?"
"Yeah."
"That's the Ark."
"Oh.......... So, I guess this is where I'm supposed to say something about your eyes looking like stars or something."
"That's how it goes in the movies, yeah."
"Your eyes resemble dots in the sky."
"You're an idiot, Bellamy."
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"Kesia....... Kesia!" Jacob calls bringing you out of your memory.
"Huh?"
"Your cup is overflowing."
You look down and stop pouring. You take a sip from the cup to keep the contents from spilling and look back up at the stars.
"Nice shirt." Jacob says, you look down and remember it was one of Bellamy's. It's dark green, and you're wearing a grey tanktop under it. It's so big that one of the sleeves droops down and shows your freckled shoulder.
"Thanks, I wish I had something warmer." You smile and take another sip of your moonshine.
"Can't you just wear your guard jacket?"
"Nuh-uh. Not when I'm off duty."
"You're a sergeant, no one's gonna care."
"My brother's working night shift instead of me, and I want to take advantage of that." You explain.
"Well, since you want to take advantage of it..." Jacob says as he grabs your cup and pours it onto the ground along with his.
"Dude!" You shout.
"We're doing shots!" He says with a big smile. He throws the cups behind his head and you roll your eyes. You walk back inside and sit at the table.
"Where's Jacob?" Sam asks.
"Take a wild guess." You groan.
"Heck Yeah! SHOTS!" Sam and Danny shouts.
A few moments later Jacob comes back with four small glasses and sits across from you.
"To a night we won't remember." He says. He lifts his glass up before lifting the cup to his mouth and throwing his head back. You do the same and the liquid burns down your throat. You shake your head at its bitter taste.
"Too much?" He laughs.
"Not at all." You smirk.
"Then in that case I'll get the whole bottle."
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About 4 hours later

12 shots later and you're up against a wall. Your and Jacob's breath staggering against each other's skin. You're numb, you don't remember what led to this, but whatever you did Jacob apparently liked it.
In his room.

Door locked.

Pushing and pulling like a magnet do. (references)

Blurry eyesight.

This makes two of your brother's friends that you've almost banged.

And one forgotten night that you'll have to ask about in the morning.

Oh, where did it all go right, because it feels so wrong?

The last thing on your mind?
Bellamy
And how you wished this was him.

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You're falling in love with this monster...
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