Love You, Always

Chapter 7

Psyche

Nakatulala lang akong nakatitig kay Eros. He was also staring straight at me. I think he was reading what's going on in my head through his stares but I bet he couldn't get me because he averted his gaze.Umiling lang siya at tumayo na.

"Just...just forget that I said that." sabi niya nalang ng hindi ako sumagot. I blinked my eyes a hundred times now, not sure how to react.

When he didn't received any response from me, he stormed out and made his way inside the hotel.

My knees felt wobbly kaya napa-upo nalang ako sa folding chair. I put my right hand over my chest. I can even hear my blood gushing through me.

What the hell was that? Ginagago na naman ba ako ni Eros? I was just waiting for him to say na joke lang 'yon, na gino-good time niya lang ako. But he didn't, that's why it felt so bizarre.

Nabaling ang tingin ko ng may taong nakatayo na sa harapan ko. Inangat ko ang ulo ko para makitang nakatingin na sa akin si Matt.

"Okay ka na?" tanong niya bago umupo sa tabi ko. I nodded in response to his question. Ngumiti siya ng bahagya sa akin. He started fidgeting his hands at seryoso lang siyang nakatutok doon.

I feel like there's something bothering Matt. Kapag marami kasi siyang iniisip he always fidgeted his hands, like this. It's his mannerism.

"Something's bothering you right?" I asked nang hindi pa siya kumibo.

He stopped fidgeting his hands at tiningnan niya ulit ako bago umiling. Kinuha niya lang ang towel na nasa kamay ko and placed it on my back to cover me from the cold. Inayos niya lang ang tuwalya, acting like he didn't heard my question at all or he didn't want to answer it.

"Huy, may problema ka e." sabi ko at siniko siya. This time, he stopped and looked at me. I stared at his eyes and I'm sure that something's wrong.

He held the towel firmly so I slowly put my hand on his. Mahigpit lang ang pagkakahawak niya sa tuwalya pero wala siyang sinasabi sa akin. Nakatingin lang siya sa kamay namin.

"Matt.." I trailed. "You're not definitely okay. Kanina pa kita napapansin. Simula n'ong tinawag kita sa labas ng hotel para sana gisingin si Eros ang lungkot na ng mukha mo." I said, concerned.

It's unusual to see Matt like this. He always so cheerful and happy, kung ano man ang iniisip niya I'm sure it's bothering him big time.

Umiling muna si Matt bago ako tiningnan. He smiled. "Mukha ba akong malungkot?" he asked and pointed his lips that were smiling.

I shrugged. "Your lips may be smiling but your eyes can't lie Matt."

I can see him smiling but his eyes were pleading. He's really bothered that I can even feel the weight of his uncertainties.

Tinanggal niya ang kamay niya sa pagkakahawak sa tuwalya kaya agad ko ring tinggal ang kamay kong nakahawak rin sa kamay niya. He let out a fake laugh  and placed his hands on the chair.