Working Forces//BTS//V Fanfic

I can't be yours

*Friday, April 12*

After dying our hair we all went to the park.

I was currently wearing Jin's prescription glasses because I can't see anything with out them right now.

Tae and I sat on a bench as the members and Revy played catch on the grass. I noticed that there was something bothering Tae, something seemed to be lingering on his mind. Maybe it had to do with last night when we all got drunk. I feel like something happened that night I should be remembering.

Do I ask him what's wrong? Should I be asking what's wrong? Would I be invading his personal life if I asked? How would it affect our friendship, or whatever this bond we have is?

"Tae... Are you alright?" I asked, putting my hand on his back.

He shook my hand off, which hurt me a little. I pulled my hand back and bit my bottom lip, not knowing what to do now.

It felt like he just rejected me...

I felt my heart clench a little as I processed the fact that he rejected my console.

"No... Don't worry about it, why don't we play with the guy's-" he stood up not even making eye contact with me, I pulled him back down.

"Tae, you have to tell me. I'm your manager, I'm supposed to take care of you-"

"That's the problem... you're my manager, and you will be for a long time; which means I can never mention what happened last night and I can never tell you how I feel." He looked away, slouching with both hands clutched together.

My head still hurt from last night, I was still processing being hung over. My reactions were slow and my motor skills were a little wonky. But I saw the tears forming under his eyes. I wanted to wipe it away, I never want to see him cry because of something I did.

What did I do? What happened last night? How does he feels? How do I feel?

"Tae-" I began but he cut me off.

"Na-yeong," he turned towards me, I didn't even know he knew my name.

Holding both of my hands with his, he sighed, "I can never have you in South Korea, I can never admit this to you over there. The company, the fans, our jobs would never allow it, but please remember what happened last night." His tears finally fell from his eyes. "I don't want to lose you, but how can I lose something I never had?"

"Tae, what are you talking abou-" he cut me off again.

"So please..." he looked at me with so much sadness in his eyes.

I felt my heart clench even more than before. At the rate my heart is clenching, it could clench until it no longer functions.

"Can you at least act like you're mine while we're here?" He asked with the sadness still in his eyes.

I scooted a little further away, dismissing my feelings once again.

I can't. I shouldn't. I can't be yours. Not now. I don't know if I'll ever be able to be yours. I want to be yours... but I can't... Our jobs won't allow it... I can't be yours...

"I know it sounds stupid, and I know people usually assume I don't know what I'm talking about, but I know how I feel; and it hurts every time I think about you with another guy, whether it's Alaric, William, or Seong Min. If we do this while we're in France, I'll be able to set foot back home, knowing that you feel the same way I do."

I don't want to be with Seong Min or William. I don't want to be with Alaric. I don't see them that way..

My heart clenched once again thinking about him being hurt because of me. I'm causing him pain.

"Taehyung, I..." I choked on my words, tears began to form and I didn't know what to say.

Tae wiped his tears with his sleeve, not letting go of my hand. He sobbed before plastering a fake smile on his face. "It's okay, you have your job to worry about. You don't have to love me back. I didn't expect you to anyway-"

Fuck it, I can't take it anymore!

I shut him up with my lips, kissing him I remember kissing him last night. As if Tae was caught by surprise he tensed up before relaxing and kissing me back. I blinked and felt a tear leave my eye.

In the background I heard screaming, sounded like someone fangirling.

Did someone recognize the guys?

I broke the kiss and looked around, I saw Revy with the rest of the guys in the distance. Jimin was talking to her and the others were watching.

I didn't see anyone fangirling over the boys. Who was that? I see Hoseok looking at us.

"I think we got caught..." I whispered to Tae.

"What?" He asked in a whisper.

"Slowly turn your head to the side." I whispered.

He slowly turned his head and saw the guys all looking at Revy.

"You think they saw?" He asked.

"Yeah, I think they saw." I nodded my head.

"What do we do now?"

"Well since they already saw... there's really no point in hiding now, right? I mean it was probably and most likely Revy that I heard fangirling."

"So does that mean you're going to act like you're mine while we're here?" He asked with an unsure smile.

"No, I'm not going to act like I'm yours while we're here." He frowned, "I am yours, for as long as you want me to be." I smiled.

He smiled back and kissed me. I kissed him back feeling the happiest I've felt in a while.

He is my first drunk kiss. He is my first kiss. He is the first guy I ever fell for. He is the guy I want to be with. He is like the moon in the dark night sky that I've known all my life. He's the moon. I'm the night sky.