A Slice Of Reality

society pains me ....

What if I don't really care
About people who dressed me in my flaws,
Mercilessly drowned me in my past,
About people who opened wounds that can no longer be stitched ,
What if I don't really care about people who made me scream with pain?

•Society translates: cold-hearted•

What if I can no longer handle this world that i barely breathe in ..
What if my soul is itching for an escape
What if my mind can no longer bare that all I want is to run away ?

•society translates: you're  careless and reckless, in the decisions you make•

What if my plastered smile slipped ?
What if my cheery-face crumbled ?
What if all that left is my real-self?
The one with an engraved frown ,
With tears running down her face ?

•society translates: pathetic,
Wants attention•

All I want is someone to build me again,
To push me forward instead of pulling me down,
To teach me to breathe again, to live again..

" why ?"
Maybe to you it's just a word , just a single word that holds no answers to the echoes in my mind, that's buzzed with questions
Of why this is  happening to me ?
Of why there are stones tied to my feet ?
Of why I can barely breathe ?

But I couldn't keep up
I couldn't keep up with the pain
I couldn't keep up with the fact ;
That no one cares anymore

I couldn't keep up with the fact ;
That my gravestone will get no flowers , no smiles, no flashbacks from people
Cause I've got no people
I barely have myself.

Sometimes I even forget that my skin is so soft and that I've got a paper heart
Sometimes I even forget that I'm a human afterall ;
That I feel
That I'm too delicate for a society that only kills
Innocent souls; with words
With actions
With the problems they weighed me
With the worries they gave me.

Society left me weak
too weak to even carry the remains of me
But in the end it won
Cause i ran and buried the remains of myself
And stitched another person that will serve its own will.

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