The Twitter Scandal - Jauregui

XII

l a u r e n ' s p e r s p e c t i v e

How the fuck did Kendall even get to her house? There are guards everywhere what the hell? That was one of the thoughts running through my head but the main one was the kiss...the way my heart started to race, the way her lips were in sync with mine...

Once I got in the car I stayed in there for a few minutes...I don't know what I was doing — or hoping would happen, I think in my mind I expected Y/N to come after me and tell me to stay...but she has Kendall...

She's in love.

I laugh at the thought of her and I and look at reality as it's facing me right now. A guard tapped on the hood of my car and pointed to the fences which were now opening. With a simple nod I turn the engine on and turn the car in reverse, backing out of the parking lot and out of y/n's way...

Why couldn't I stop thinking about it? The facts were right there but I kept looking at the thoughts and alternatives, like what if Kendall never was there...what if Y/N told her to leave? I wouldn't be in here driving back home to literally no one but in that house with a girl who couldn't hurt a fly, a girl who is loving and caring and not the person I thought she would be...

What if...

What if I never sent out that tweet?

I took a deep breath and tried to stop thinking, about her at least — I turned the radio up and listened to whatever was on for the time being. When I got home I saw another car there, a rather roof familiar one who's owner I didn't want to see. I stepped out of my car and so did she, she was in there waiting, waiting for me to be home. "Lauren!" Lucy said as I heard her car door close and mine lock. "I've been calling you! Why haven't you've been responding?" She said as I walked passed her as if she wasn't in my sight.

I started to unlock the door when I saw her hand press against the door for me to open it and for her just to shut again. "Lauren I'm sorry about what I said earlier can you at least listen?" She said now standing in front of my door "can I go inside my own house?!" I said and with that she moved just enough for me to open the door, I let her inside and she shut the door behind her as I made my way onto the couch her following behind.

"Where the fuck did you go?" She yelled and I laughed "why the fuck do you care?" I mocked in her voice "whatever, I'm sorry about what happened earlier...really..." she said and I could tell she was looking at me by the direction of her voice, I couldn't look at her back — not because I was mad, but because I wasn't listening. My mind was still replaying what had happened earlier — I still feel the feeling of her lips up against mine when they aren't.

Lucy said something else which this time I really didn't listen to, I looked at her, not in the eyes but at her face — I noticed her facial features change, her eyes softened up and she didn't seem tensed. What did she say?

"What?" I asked softly.

"Lauren...I'm afraid, okay?" I could tell she was on the verge of collapsing.

"Afraid of...?"

"God damnit Lauren are you really making me say it again?" She said all tense up again, then she sniffled and her eyes looked down at the open gap between her legs which were crisscrossed.

"Falling back in love with you...that's what I'm afraid of..."

I didn't know how to respond to that...but something told me to come out and tell her what happened earlier. "While I was mad at you...I went to y/n's to apologize...and I uh—I kissed her..." I gulped after I finished the sentence as if I was holding something back.

"Y-You did?" She asked and I nodded "wow..." is all that came out of her mouth. "Then guess who showed up?" I said with sarcastically "who?" She asked and It get like we were in high-school again when we'd sit on this couch and gossip "Kendall," I looked at her and laughed "what? How?" She was so confused which made me hysterical, I started to burst out laughing "I don't even know how she got there she just popped up and was like hey I'm Kendall" I managed to say without laughing but then couldn't handle myself and continued laughing.

"Fuck, that was awkward..." I said after a while "but I think I like her...like really..."

I looked at Lucy and she looked back at me "you did seem kind of jealous earlier —" I scoffed "I wasn't jealous" I shook my head "yes you were," she said and I huffed in defeat "whatever," I relaxed my head on the couch.

I admitted it...out loud...I like y/n...

The more I thought about it, I realized she kissed me too...

But does she feel the same...?