My heart is stripped just for you(H2OVanoss)

Part 33 - Constellations

Evening ❤️❤️.
Ok, this three days schedule is my heaven. 😂
No action in this chapter, no action ahead of us. But here you go anyway. Enjoy ^.^
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(Delirious POV)
"Dinner time!" I heard Sydney yelled from the kitchen, but I didn't have any taste for food.

I just wanted to lay down, sleep, or slowly die. Vanish from this world, be invisible to others. I felt hurt that Evan told Luke about what happened, more was I pissed that he didn't yell at me for how stupid I was.

"Mind if we join you?" I heard Evan's voice.

I shrugged, when he put a plate full of meal on the table in front of me.

"Eat it," he said softly, and I shook my head.

"I'm not hungry," I replied truthfully.

I don't deserve to eat. I don't deserve any of this. I'm nobody.

"You can choose whatever you want to do after the dinner," he said, making me shrug.

"Ok."

He picked up the plate with a fork, stabbing the piece of meat. He let the sauce drop down a bit, then looked at me.

"Open your mouth."

I did what he asked me for, letting him feed me like I was a small child or a handicapped.

"That's my good boy. A few more, ok?"

Why is he trying so much, I wonder.

Even though I swallowed a good amount of a food, I didn't enjoy any of it. I couldn't split the feeling of being hungry or being fully filled, it felt the same.

"You're such a sweet boy, Jonathan. You can choose what you want to do," he said, proudly smiling at me.

"Just sit here and do nothing," I replied, sinking lower into the sofa.

"Alright. We can do that. Mind if Sydney join us?" He asked, receiving yet another shrug.

"I don't care."

After what felt like an eternity, because for me I couldn't guess the time speed, Evan stood up. He brought me a jacket, handing it to me.

"What?" I asked lazily.

"We're going out. C'mon."

"I don't want to," I said, rolling my eyes.

"Jonathan, take your jacket and follow me."

Something in his voice made me stand up. Maybe it was his authority in the voice, maybe the way it sounded, like an order. I heard loud goodbye from Sydney, but we already closed the door behind us. I sat down in his car, not really in the mood to be outside.

He switched through a few stations, not happy with any of them, so we continued in a silence. I wasn't paying attention to the surrounding, so  it surprised me when the car stopped in the middle of the forest. It was already dark and I gave my eyes a few minutes to adjust to it.

"Where are we?" I asked, not recognizing it.

"My favorite place. My mum and I were returning here almost every night when I was little. My little escape point. C'mon."

I followed him silently, carefully stepping into his steps, until we reached the cliffs. He lay down, looking up.

"Look there, you see that?" He raised his hand, pointing up.

I looked up. The dark sky was shining by the stars everywhere, one big moon. Something I saw only from TV, as a city boy. I sat down next to him, looking at the direction he was point at.

"Over there, you see? Ursa Minor, brightest star Polaris."

I nodded, blown away by the beauty of this. The stars were amazingly visible, not just fade, but bright and clear.

"And over there? Andromeda," he pointed to anther stars.

I lay down, looking up. All I saw were stars, not really able to see what he saw. For me it was just a stars, bright and beautiful.

"And here, right here, that's Orion with Rigel as the brightest star. It looks like a starship," he laughed.

"You seem to enjoy this," I mumbled, looking at the calm sky.

"You bet. Me and my mum were competing who would find the more constellations. She always beat me."

Only if I had the same childhood. My mum would yell at me for wasting my time looking at the unimportant stars. And my dad would tell me I'm useful again. And he would be right.

"You can beat me any time. What's over there?" I pointed at some stars, looking like a mouse.

"That's Leo. You see? Lying between Virgo and Cancer over there."

"And the brightest star?" I asked, waiting for a few minutes in silence.

I looked his way, seeing him be on the phone. He quickly looked my way.

"Regulus!" He informed me, making me laugh.

"Did you just Google that?" I shook my head, looking up again.

"You wanted to know that! I'm not as smart as you think."

"Do you know some stories to those stars? Any of them? Or about the Moon?" I asked, changing the subject.

"Let me think about that. The average distance of the Moon from the Earth is 384,400 km, his equatorial radius is 1738 km, his-"

I laughed again, completely amused by his blabbering.

"Nerd," I mumbled, inspecting the amazing sky.

"You can't even imagine. I had like ten books about astronomy home, my mum was really into stuff like that. Nobody really knows about that, so don't you dare telling somebody!" He warned me, but I could hear his smile.

"I wanted you to keep that incident with Ohm to yourself. But you told Luke, the only person I didn't want to know about this. Care to tell me why?" I asked him, already knowing I ruined this moment.

I just felt hurt, thinking about how he broke my trust. The only thing I wanted from him, the only thing he didn't keep.

"Because Luke is your best friend, Jonathan. He deserves to know the truth, not to be lying to. Don't you think you would want to know if anything like this happened to him?" He asked me serious.

"Luke is strong, something like this wouldn't happen to him. But I deserved this, it's my fault," I replied, standing up.

"We will work on that. I think it's enough for today. Do you want to go home?" He asked me, and I shrugged.

"It's really up to you," I replied.

I don't care.