Little Miss. Nobody

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I slammed my door shut and threw my backpack onto the bedroom floor. I reached into my mini fridge and pulled out a cold bottle of water. I snatched up my laptop and plopped down onto my bed. I cracked open the bottle and let the cool liquid rush into my body numbing all of my senses. I lay there for a moment taking in the quiet and clearing my mind of the events that have happened today.

I heard the front door swing open and heard footsteps from multiple people flooding I to my home. My bedroom door flew open and my drunk idiot brother stood there in front of me. "What do you want? " I snapped. It took him a couple of seconds to realize that I had just spoken. "Tell mom I am going to be out with a few friends and I won't be back till late so don't wait up for me." " yeah whatever." I growled and he walked out of my room. I heard the foot steps stumble out and the lamp crashing onto the floor. The boys giggled and rushed out slamming the door behind them. Idiots.

I really am not a brat it's just that my brother does this every day. He comes in with his dick friends drunk and tells me to let mom know he is going to be "hanging out with his friends". But how am I suppose to tell my mom when she doesn't even bother to show up till 3:00 in the morning. Ever since my dad left us things have never been the same. My brother turned to alcohol and drugs to ease the pain and my mom went to parting and man-whores. Me on the other hand. I choose to push every one out of my life and stay by myself because they always leave.

I set my water bottle into the night stand and turned onto YouTube. Every one at school thinks I am a complete and total loner but little do they know I do YouTube vlogs for a living. When I was 12 years old I made my first video and posted it onto YouTube as a dare from my friend. That video somehow got 10k views over night and so I kept making them. A month later my perfect life came to a sudden halt when my dad left. I pushed everyone away but I kept vlogging as my way of comfort.

YouTube got ahold of me and offered me a job. I do tutorials and hauls from stores. Sometimes YouTube will send me products or money to buy products and I will give them reviews. Whenever nobody is home I set up my station and film. Sometimes I just film myself doing random crap for no reason. Hey don't judge me. It's very lonely at my house so this is what I do with my life. Nobody at my house knows what I do and I plan to keep it that way. Behind my dresser is a small room my dad and I would play in when I was little. He swore to me that he would never tell anyone about it and I did too. It is our spot. So that's where I film.

I pulled away my dresser and climbed into the filming room. I got all of my equipment set up and started filming my video. "Hey so first off I would like to open some of the fan mail that I have gotten and give some shout outs to the people who have sent it, I adore all of you guys so much and it brightens up my day when I receive these.." Once I was done filming and editing the video I posted it up and instantly started to get views.

I climbed out of the hidden room and started to read the comments on the video. One in particular caught my eye. "Hey your from my school. Wtf. Your a nobody. Why do people even watch your shit?" She tagged all of the popular people and gossipers of the school. Oh shit! No one is suppose to know about me. I am Little Miss. Nobody.

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{two}

The comments on my YouTube video kept piling up. I needed to step away from my laptop before I had a panic attack.

I quickly stood up from my bed and ran out om my room. I am a freak. You wasn't to know why? I clean when i am stressed.

I ran into my cleaning supply closet and grabbed my broom. I sweeped up the shattered remains of the lamp that were sprawled out across the living room floor.

After I was finished with cleaning around the house I started to cook dinner. I decided to make Fettuccine Alfredo.

I blasted my music on the radio and gathered up all of the ingredients and spread the ingredients out onto the counter. I started to boil some water for the noodles when I just couldn't take it any more.

I grabbed my laptop and brought it into the kitchen and read the comments that were continuously piling up.

A lot of them were people from my school flipping out that I really did have a life other than cowering in the shadows of the school hallway.

I cooked the noodles and poured the sauce onto the pasta. YUMMMMM!!!! I have always loved pasta. Some may say it is my comfort food. Who am I kidding I am the only one who says that.

I put the leftovers into the fridge with a label on it so my brother would have something to eat when he got home. My mother on the other hand has probably already had a free meal provided by no other than the man whore of the day. Whatever.

I grabbed my I Phone and plugged it into my stereo in the bathroom and hopped into the shower. I lathered my hair in my coconut shampoo and conditioner.

I decided to shave tonight because I had to dress good for tomorrow. Sorry legs I am plowing the forest tonight. Once I was done with showering I slid on my fuzzy pajamas and climbed into bed.

Tomorrow was going to be a busy day so I had to be in tip top condition for tomorrow. I turned off my light and drifted off into a very deep sleep.
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The next morning when I woke I was filled with excitement. Because today is going to be the day that I finally act like my self. I jumped out of bed and ran into my closet.

I put on some ombré pastel high wasted shorts and a white crop top with a dream catcher on the front. The whole outfit was given to my by hollister so I could recommend their clothing.

Gosh how I love being a YouTuber. I put on my makeup with a slight bat winged eye liner and thick mascara. I put on nude lipstick from MAC and pull my hair into a side braid with a flower headband around the top.

I pack my backpack and slip on my white vans. I hurry out of my room and grab an apple. My brother is still in bed and signs show that my mom is already at work. I snatch my lanyard off of the key rack and head out of the house.

I start the car engine and blast my music. I constantly keep reminding myself that today is going to be a good day.

People will stare but your okay with that. You'll be alone but that's normal. Last but not least you will keep your head up no matter what other people say or do.

Yeah right..... We all know today is going to be a shitty day and there is no way around it.

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Hey guise thanks for reading my book.

Question of the day:

What color eyes do you have?

Song of the day:

Sleepyhead by Passion Pit

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