Uncanny|| E.G.D

Look me in my eyes

(Go ahead and look at the picture so you can picture what happens in this chapter.)

Hi journal it's been a while, it's actually been a week and not much has happened. I have been hanging out with Ethan and Grayson. My moms trip to another hospital was extended, which I kind of new it would be, so I've been staying at the Dolan's house. Today is Friday and I just got home from school. I can't wait to Graduate. I'm tired of that place. A bigger issue is with my feelings right now. I have really strong feelings for Ethan and I'm afraid pretty soon I won't be able to control them...
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I sat my journal down as Ethan walked in the living room.
"Hey." I said turning and looking at him.
"Hey, whatcha doing?" He asked plopping down on the couch next to me.
"I was just writing in my journal." I smiled.
"Ooooo, let me see." He smiled reaching for it.
"No." I said slapping his hand away. We both laughed. We talked about nonsense for a little while, and then my phone rang. I picked it up and looked at it.
"It's-" I was interrupted.
"Matt." Ethan finished.
"Yeah." I said and answered the phone walking away.
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"He wants me to go out with him tonight, so I'm going to get ready." I told Ethan before walking upstairs.
"Okay." I heard him mumble. I took a shower and then did my hair. I decided to put on a little bit of makeup and dress pretty cute. After I was satisfied with myself I grabbed my things and walked downstairs.
"I'll see you later." I told Ethan before closing the door.
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I pulled up to Matt's house and waited on him to come outside. When I saw him walk out the door I waved. He waved back as he walked to my car. He opened the door, sat down, and gave me a kiss. It didn't feel the same.
"Hey babe." He smiled looking me in the eyes.
"Hey." I said smiling as real as I could. The whole car ride was pretty awkward. He mostly done all the talking and I just sat there...thinking....thinking of Ethan.
"Okay, what's wrong?" He asked.
"Huh?" I asked.
"You don't seem like your normal, chatty self." He said looking over at me and I continued to look at the road not wanting to look at him.
"Oh, no. I'm fine. Just tired." I smiled still looking at the road.
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We pulled up at the restaurant and got out of the car. As we walked towards the door he didn't open it for me and it made me think of how Ethan always opened the door for me at work and just about anywhere. Matt usually opened doors for me. It just seems like he's much more self centered than he was just a few weeks ago. Why is he changing so much? We sat down at our table and all he could do was talk about all his sport stuff. He just talked about himself. He's not even asking me how my day was or anything.
"Hi guys how are we doing today?" The waitress said. At least she asked.
"Good, how are you?" I said with a smile.
"Doing alright, thanks for asking, can I get you guys something to drink?" She asked.
"I'll have water." I said as I looked to Matt and he was staring at her. He was looking her up and down.
"And for you?" She looked at Matt and he didn't even hear her because he was too busy staring and lost in his thoughts.
"Matt." I kicked him.
"Oh, water." He said and I rolled my eyes. Later she returned with our drinks.
"You guys ready to order?" She asked.
"Well me and my friend here are going to do the two for twenty deal, I'll have the Parmesan pasta, and she'll have the shrimp pasta." He said handing her the menus and smiling.
"Friend?" I asked.
"I didn't mean to say that." He giggled.
"Yeah. Okay. Well this friend of yours is going to leave you here alone. Bye." I smiled before getting up.
"You're my ride." He said and I stopped in my tracks and turned around.
"The fact that you couldn't even ask me to stay and instead are worried about how your going to get home is amazing. Why don't you get your buddies from the basketball team to come get you? You know the ones you haven't shut up about all night?" I laughed and walked away.
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I pulled up to the Dolan's house and walked in the door. I dropped my stuff and started crying as I sat down on the couch.
"Heyyyy Ember! You're ba-" Ethan looked at me, "woah what happened?" He asked and I stood up to walk away.
"Nothing. I don't want to talk about it." I said as I attempted to walk by him. He grabbed me by the shoulders and pushed me against the wall. He put his hand on the wall beside me and looked down. I looked at his eyes, which were still looking at the ground.
"Ethan." I said and he kept looking at the ground, "look me in my eyes." I said and he looked up. I stood there looking into his eyes and touched his chest so I could be sure he would know everything I was thinking at the moment.

"I....I, love you, Ethan. I love you."

I'm backkkkkkkkkk!!!😊