Uncanny|| E.G.D

Horrible circumstances call for horrible solutions

I sat there and thought about everything. It's all so crazy. This is my life now, it's no longer a priority to be a normal teenager. It's all supernatural, and I'm sure I've only been exposed to the slim parts of it thus far. 

"You should go talk to him." Liliana interrupts me in my thoughts. Why does she care? I'm sure it isn't that she cares about the relationship. She still loves him, which is not surprising. How can you not love him? He's amazing, but did she know the same Ethan that I know now? 

"I will. He needs time to calm down." I finally reply. 

"He is calm. He is just worried. He loves you, and I can't believe I'm saying this, but I don't want to see what happens to him if he loses you." She says, it seemed hard for her to say. She doesn't like to be vulnerable. She puts up an act, so she's not subjectable to pain. 

"I don't want to hate you. You know? You've just done some pretty horrible things." I sigh.

"Horrible circumstances call for horrible solutions." She holds eye contact with me for a second before walking away. 

I'm sure she hasn't had it easy. It's been centuries of trauma for all of them. I'm new to this, but I don't want to live the way they all have. I don't want to see all of the things they have seen. No person should have to. I stand up from the couch and before I can make it to the hallway I'm greeted by Grayson. 

"I'm sorry." He opens his arms for a hug. 

"For?" I say hugging him back.

"Everything that is happening. I was listening." He pulls away and smiles. 

"That's your tactic huh? Just listen and refrain from engaging." I giggle. 

"It's gotten me this far." He replies and I nod. 

"I'm gonna go find Ethan." I smile and he motions for me to walk by him. 

I make my way towards the back door down the hallway. I glance at old photographs and run my hand against the books placed neatly on the bookshelf. I question what I might say to him. How do I assure him that everything will be fine, when I don't even know the answer to that question? I finally reach the backdoor and see him sitting next to the firepit, where him and I sat the night I found out he was a vampire. Just a few days prior I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I open the door, step outside, and take a deep breath. He looks up and gives a half smile, only it doesn't say, "I'm happy to see you, it says I feel sorry for you and what I've gotten you into". It's all over his face, the pity he has for me. 

"I'm sorry. I should've been more understanding." I say. He drops his head and shakes it back and forth.

"No, I shouldn't have came into your life. I ruined everything for you." There it is, the words the half smile said. 

"Don't say that." I sigh and sit in front of him.

"You don't get it. If I could go back and change things, I wouldn't have brought you into this." He says as his eyes gloss over. 

"You know what?" I ask and he raises his eyebrows, "If I could go back and change things, I would have made it so I had met you sooner. Ethan, I'm so happy I met you, I love you. Yes, there have been some crazy things happen in the past few months but the past few months have also made for the best moments in my life. No matter how twisted everything else has been. I mean for Christ sake, I'm the parallel of a 600 year old vampire who has made more enemies than Hitler ever did. I was destined to end up with this life either way." I put my hand on his and he stares into my eyes for what seemed like an eternity. 

"I love you." He says as a subtle tear falls down his cheek and I bring my thumb to it, and wipe it away. He leans in for a kiss. When our lips connect I say it back, "I love you, Ethan." I say inside my head.