Pleasure Or Love (When An It Gay Fell In Love -SPG)

14--- goodbye

RAVER POV

Masaya kong inimulat ang mga mata ko sa paniniwala na nasa tabi ko pa sya sa pag gising ngunit nag kakamali pala ako.

"Iza?"

Napa upo ako at linibot ang tingin ko sa silid. Mabilis kong sinuot ang boxers ko at sumilip sa cr ngunit wala paring iza na andun.

Bigla namang pumasok si kevin

"Nasalabas ba si iza?"

"Babe bumalik na sya ng manila. Sinundo sya ni winster dito"

"What?"

"Dito ka ba natulog sa kwarto nya?"

Tanong ni kevin. Umiwas ako ng tingin kasi baka mag talo pa kami.

"May nangyari ba sa inyo ni iza raver?"

"What do you mean?"

"Did you slept with her? Kasi sa etsura mong yan raver it is pretty obvious that something happened"

"Can we not talked about this kevin. Susundan ko si iza"

"Iza iza palagi ka na lang iza ng iza. Can you please be true to me raver"

Tumaas na ang boses nya at ganun din ako

"You want to know the truth? Fine, i made love with her"

"Made love? By saying that you are also implying that you are in love with her"

"I'm sorry kevin. Pinigilan ko. I tried pero hindi ko kinaya. I'm sorry if i didn't tell you sooner"

"Mahal ka ba nya?"

"Hindi ko alam"

At umiyak na lang ako. Kevin looks missirable. I have hurt him and have hurt iza too. Dalawa ko silang nasaktan.

"Fix your self. Your parents doesn't need to know that something happened. Hintayin na kita sa labas"

At tumalikod na sya sa akin. I took my phone and tried calling iza but her phone must be off. Ng napatingin uli ako sa side table ay may naka ipit pala na letter dun. Dali dali ko naman etong buksan

Raver

i'm sorry if i have to leave you like this. Before we get here in palawan nung pumunta ako sa condo mo i was about to tell you that i am quitting my job as your PA.

I cannot prolonged what we have been doing because.... because i feel that it is not right anymore.

You have a boyfriend, i can see that you loved him so much and with me in the picture ay ma coconfuse ka which is what i dont want to happen.

Like what i have told you before, what you have for me must be out of lust lang. Maybe perhaps you are just curious and i was too. I don't know raver.

Let us forget about everything. Forget about me and i will try to do the same.

Take care

xxx

Isabella

Fuck! Ganun na lang yun, linayasan nya lang ako hindi man lang nagpaalam sa akin ng personal.

And her real name is isabella? She did not even told me about it. Come to think of it hindi ko nga pala na kita yung resume nya.

Napasabunot naman ako sa buhok ko. Lagot ka talaga sa akin iza pag nagkita tayo.

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ISABELLA POV

"are you okay?"

Tanong ni trish

"I'm fine trish. Napagod lang ako sa byahe"

Galing kasi kaming korea

"What i meant is emotionally fine ka ba?"

"I don't know trish. I kind of miss him"

"Well it's been 2 weeks that you have not seen him and you were always with him before kaya nasanay ka na"

"Oo nga. Shit! I really miss that gay"

Trish turned on the tv

"There's your gay bella"

Well there's my gay looking all so happy.

The host has been interviewing him.

"Raver we have heared na may bago ka dawng brand na iindurso?"

"Ah yes tito greg at yun ang dapat abangan ng mga fans"

"So raver we will do fast talk now, are you ready?"

"Ready na po tito greg"

"Araw or gabi?"

"Gabi. I'm nocturnal"

"Action movie or drama?"

"Drama?"

"Well it's your forte."

"Well i think it is"

"Mahal mo or mahal ka?"

"Mmmm mahal ko"

Syempreh dun talaga sya sa mahal nyang si kevin

"Sex or chocolate?"

"Sex for me"

"Wow! You always go for chocolate before raver"

"for a change tito greg"

For a change daw ha. Pinatay ko naman yung tv.

"Why did you turned it off?"

Tanong naman ulit ni trish.

"I'm on the stage of moving on nga diba?"

"Well, you are right. Gusto mo bang mag travel nalang tayo ulit. Sa alaska? You want?"

"I can't trish. You know that dad asked me to help him. May meeting nga tomorrow and he wants me to come with him"

"So you are really going to work now sa company nyo?"

"I think it's about time na din to mature. ikaw nga may business na kayo ni winster"

"Well para sa ekonomiya hehehehe"

"Why dont you just say it na para sa future?"

"Mmmm wala lang. I better call him baka saan naman yun at ma blind item na naman"

"Sige na, call your lover now"

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RAVER POV

i'm here outside winster's dressing room at inaabangan nanaman sya. Ng palapit na sya ay hinarangan ko na sya ka agad kasi yung huling nag abang ako sa kanya ay bigla nalang tumakbo eto.

"Raver, what are doing here?"

"Obviously i've been waiting for you"

"O bakit naman?"

"Tell me kung nasaan na si iza"

"Sorry raver hindi ko talaga alam"

"Ikaw ang sinamahan nya dun sa palawan pabalik dito. At alam ko na may nalalaman ka"

"Kung may alam man ako ay hindi ko rin sasabihin sa'yo, kaya pasensya na raver"

"Please winster i need to see her"

"Mag hantay ka na lang raver. Sa liit ng pilipinas i'm sure magkikita at magkikita parin kayo"

"But i need to see her now. It's been 2 weeks na pinagtataguan nya ako"

"I'm really sorry, but i cant tell you"

Sabay pasok naman nya sa dressing room.

Saan kana ba iza. It's been 2 weeks na hindi ka nagpapakita.

I really really miss her.

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