fated, not | jung jaehyun

13 {Love}

YOUR P.O.V

I stared at the seemingly harmless razor, but it can be dangerous if I choose to use it the wrong way. I held it in my hands, ready to see some red. This is my form of release. There are just so many happenings that are taking a toll on my mental health. As I reduced the distance between the razor and my wrist, a ringtone was heard. I headed outside of my bathroom after switching off the tap. Water was already overflowing from the bath tub. Wow, that was a lengthy thought process.

"Hello?" I heard a raspy voice on the other end. "Oh. Are you not asleep yet?" It was Jaehyun. I heard him stifle a yawn as he was trying to talk to me. "No, not yet. You're tired, Jae. Head to bed now. Don't need to bother about me." I then heard a chuckle on the other end of the line. "I love the new nickname, Min." I remained silent, my mind still floating over the incident that happened about fifteen minutes ago.

"Min? You still there? What happened? Were you still sad over what happened earlier?" I started sobbing. Why was I even crying? Why do I cry at things that don't matter to anyone else? Why am I so useless?

"Minhee, stop crying. I can't be by your side now, but will you please tell me what happened?" I told him everything, even about my urge to use the razor. I felt like he could be trusted. I'm so naive, aren't I?

"Min, oh my god. Do not touch that razor. I'm coming to get you. Min, wait for me. I said wait. Okay?" I felt so guilty for letting Jaehyun come over at such a late timing just because of my stupid thoughts. Before I could reject his offer, he already hung up the phone. I tried calling back to stop him, but it seems like it was too late. I heard knocks on my window. I looked out and spotted Jaehyun downstairs, outside my house at the front lawn. "Jaehyun. It's late. You should go back home."

In just a blink of an eye, he was already climbing his way up the tree situated just outside my window. He jumped in, onto my balcony and pushed me into my room.

"What do you think you're doing, Minhee?!" As I stared at his lethargic face, he hastily removed the razor from my hands. "What happened? Are you okay?" His look of concern did shake up my thoughts. Do I really want to take my own life for this small matter? Do I want to hurt those around me who loves me?

As the memories of today flashed across my mind, I let a tear slip out of my right eye. Jaehyun noticed that and used his thumb to wipe it away from my face. "Don't cry, Min."

He engulfed me in his embrace and sat on my bed. He laid his head against the headrest of the bed and started singing a song.

"Nae soneul jaba woneul geuryeo (Take my hand and draw a circle)

i mankeum nanwo gajin geojanha (This is how much we've shared together)

nae on maeumi ne gyeote (My whole heart is by your side)

ne kkumi nae gyeote (Your dreams are by my side)"

I realised the hidden meaning behind the song. Jaehyun wanted to reassure me that it was all okay. He was here for me and I could rely on him anytime. Without knowing, I fell asleep to his soothing vocals.

JAEHYUN'S P.O.V

I thought I would start singing to calm Minhee down. Little did I know that she already fell asleep in my embrace. Thank goodness I managed to stop her from her foolish actions of self-harm.

I took this chance to breathe in her scent and she smelled like strawberries, my favourite scent. I placed her on her bed and tucked her in before touring her room. I managed to get my hands on a few dangerous objects and quickly hid them somewhere safe.

I placed all of the sharp objects that could pose harm to Minhee in the small slit behind her closet. Hopefully, she doesn't find out.

I went back into her bed to accompany her until the next morning. I wrapped my arms around her waist and brought her closer to me. She felt so fragile. She felt like she could break any second.

Thinking about her illness, I seemed to have heard one of my parents having an argument over it. I don't know why but they were hollering at each other. I heard my dad talking about the disease and that it was all my mom's fault.

I decided not to overthink and drift off into dreamland with Minhee in my arms. I swear I will not let any harm get to her. I will not make her cry. I will protect her even if I die.

I love you, Minhee

A/N:
Hey! This chapter may be a little short. It's your regular writer's block. I'm planning to end this at 20 chapters, just like 'My Prince Butterfly'. Shameless self promo but check it out if you haven't already. It's your regular cliché love story with a happy ending. I swear you guys will hate me once this book finishes. Well, wait for the end then. Bye!

Song Mentioned:
Without You - NCT U

Current Obsession:
Sun & Moon - NCT 127