Destiel -- One Shots

.....the park where I first saw you

I woke up with the sound of my alarm. I'm not going to work anyway so I was thinking about sleeping in but it's hard for me to go back to sleep after I wake up. Before, I didn't even need to sleep. I've been human for 10 months and so far, I'm getting the hang of it. The urge to urinate when you're nervous and the taste of burgers and bacons and pancakes. It's not so bad. I turned to my side and saw Dean sleeping like a baby. My baby. We've been together for almost 5 years. A miracle, I should say. I can't stay away from him anymore. I can't afford losing him over anything. Just the thought of not having him frightens me. I gently ran my fingers through his soft hair. We had a big fight the other night and we're still not okay. I wore my shirt and made some coffee. I stared outside the window feeling the ambiance of the sun and the warmth of my coffee. I decided to make breakfast thinking somehow it will lighten things between us. I hate it when we fight and not talking about it before we go to sleep. I made pancakes and bacon, after a few minutes our bedroom door opened. He looked at me and forced a smile. I smiled back.

'Good morning.' He said, not taking his eyes off me even if I was cooking. I turned to him.

'Good morning. Want some coffee?' I put out the mug and poured him one. 'Food will be ready in a minute.' I handed him the cup but he also held my hand. He put my hand against his face like it's the softest pillow in the world while looking at me and he kissed it.

'I miss you.' He said to me. I chuckled and smiled.

'I'm here now.' I turned off the stove and got the rest of the bacon and the pancakes on a plate. He helped prepared the table and he's still looking at me.

'You do know it's not polite to stare.'

'You're so beautiful I can't help it. Are you still upset about the other day?'

'I don't wanna talk about it, Dean. Can we have a decent conversation in the morning, please?'

'You can't keep running away from this. We have to do something.'

'And we will do something I about it, I promise. Besides, I'm not running away from it. Now for once, can we just enjoy the food on the table?' He closed his eyes for a minute and we started to eat. After a few minutes...

'We can't just ignore this, Cass.' I dropped my utensils and sat back.

'Alright, that's it.' I stood up and got dressed. 'I'm going out.'

'Where are you going?'

'Out.' I went to the park and looked at people. Couples. Kids. Family. Old couples. Life is too precious. I want that for me and Dean. I want us to grow old together and die in each other's arms. For the last 10 months we've been looking  for my vessel. And for the last 10 months we've been also running from angels who wants usbdead. They say love between an angel and a human is an abomination and it should not exist. With my vessel, all this running and killing will stop but I won't be with Dean anymore and that will kill me. I love him too much to see him suffer. I have 3 weeks left to find my vessel and time is running out we don't have the slightest clue where to look. Only one thing left to do. I went to an abandoned warehouse and summoned an old friend. I miss my angel radio, I just have to close my eyes and there they are but now I have to do the whole slicing hand thing. I summoned Balthazar. A cloud of smoke formed and he appeared in front of me holding a drink.

'Castiel, I'm surprised you've made it this far.' He smiled and drank.

'I need your help.'

'Don't we all need help?'

'Balthazar, please.'

'You know well that if I help you, our fellow brothers and sisters will also come looking for me and cast me out here in this awful filth.'

'Earth is not so bad.'

'You don't have a plan, do you?' I walked out of the warehouse and headed home. I saw Dean washing the dishes.

'Cass? Where were you? You got me worried.' I held his hand and we sat down in the couch.

'Remember the first time we met? We were sitting at the bench at the park and you were eating your pie and it spilled on your shirt. I offered you my handkerchief. I still remember how beautiful your hands looked.'

'And you also said if I can just write down my number and you'll be the happiest man in the world.' We both chuckled.

'And I still am.' I turned to him and looked deep into his eyes. God, I love this man so much. I leaned closer to kiss his soft lips. I want him, I want him now. I want him more than ever. I need him. He sat on my lap and kissed me harder. He began taking off my coat and undoing the buttons of my shirt. I carried him to our room and wrapped his legs around me. I laid him down on the bed not taking my eyes off him.

'I love you.' I told him.

'And I love you.' I undressed him and slid two fingers down his stomach. I kissed and licked and licked his neck again and again. He unbuckled my belt and unzipped my pants. Best head ever. I held his face and returned the favor. The sound of his moan is music to my ears. I turned him over and grabbed his waist to make him bend over for me. I kissed and licked his back the harder I go in. I held his hand tighter and went deeper and faster. I pulled out and he turned again to give me head. He grabbed my butt and signaled to go faster, he wants me to finish in his mouth. Damn, this is so good. I grabbed his head and went faster until I came. We haven't made love in a while and this by far is one of our best. We laid down catching our breath and he put his body on top of me and I played with his hair. Now's the perfect time to tell him.

'I have to tell you something.'

'What is it?' He didn't look up to me.

'I already found a way how we can stop this.' He sat up, smiled and began stroking me slowly.

'Tell me.' He said still smiling.

'I talked to Balthazar.' His smile faded and stopped stroking me.

'You mean you summoned him?'

'Yeah, he can get me to heaven and finish this once and for all. They can stop coming after you, after us. We can stop running.' He stood up and put his shirt on. He's not happy.

'You still don't understand, do you? We've been running for 10 months and I'd rather run with you and look over my shoulder everytime someone's after us than run without you!' I stood up and faced him.

'Dean, I don't want that for you! I want you to have a normal life! I want you to grow old and live your life with no worries! I want you to die happy!'

'Life without you is life not worth living. I would do anything for you. Kill thousands of angels for you! But you're hurting me right now.' I walked towards him but he veered away.

'Don't come near me. You hurt me. I don't wanna see you. This was over the minute you made that deal with him without asking me first. This is on you.' He walked out and I moved out. He didn't come home the next day and the next day and the day after that. He won't return my calls, he won't return my texts. Everytime I called it just went straight to voicemail. After 7 days, I summoned Balthazar again.

'You ready, Castiel?'

'Let's get this over with.'

'Your funeral.' A bright light appeared in front of me and the next thing I know, I'm in heaven. Angels who followed us, angels who wanted and tried to kill me and Dean.

'Welcome back, brother. We knew you couldn't stay away from us. No need for bloodshed. We just want you back on one condition.'

'What is it?'

'Any communication with Dean Winchester will be prohibitted. You can watch over him but the minute we learn you try to talk him. You know well what a finger snap can do.'

'Fair enough.' After 2 years, I carried the pain. He never stopped looking for me. He still loves me. He still went to the bench and sat for hours hoping I'd come back. He prayed to me and it broke my heart to not be there for him. One day, he went back to the bench eating his pie. I was watching and some of the pie fell on his shirt. I closed my eyes and I was next to him at the bench.

'Here's a handkerchief.' I said. And it was so good to see him again.