Stay |unedited| [COMPLETED]

Same Old

Your POV

I woke up in a different bed. The same kind of bed any decent girl would never find themselves on. I sat up while covering my upper body with the filthy blanket.

I looked at the guy whose already bucking his belt.

"I left the money at the drawer. You were good as always, (y/n). " The guy smiled as he went near me to kiss me so I kissed back.

"So were you." I replied after the heated kiss we shared. The guy winked and then left me.

I sighed. I was back with my old self, fucking with random guys. It was my way to escape, but yet still my greatest nightmare.

I went to the shower. I turned it on as the warm water kissed my body. I was wishing every time I take a bath that it would somehow cleanse the mark different guys left in me. I looked at the mirror.

I had hickies all over my body. From my neck, my chest to my abdomen. I felt so dirty. But this feeling wasn't new to me.

Even myself didn't know that time that I was again, shedding a tear. I had stop being vulnerable. Being a weakling as me years ago should be long gone.

I grabbed the towel and went out of the bathroom. I cover up myself by putting my clothes on. I grabbed the envelope the guy left then I went out of the motel room.

I missed my father. I haven't been able to visit him. I had to saved up. I was still lucky we received some donation by whoever that was. It suffice my dad's bill for few months.

"Appa.." I held my dad's hand. He weakly looked at me. He was able to smile at me after gathering the energy to do it.

"Is my (y/n) having a hard time?" He asked as he held my hand back.

I nodded. For the first time, I removed my mask in front of my dad. I hugged him while he was lying.

He caressed the back of my head. It was comforting. Very comforting..

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I went back to my apartment. I was walking near my doorsteps when I saw a figure so familiar. There goes the faint pinch in my chest. I missed him. It's been weeks.

I ignored Yoon Gi as I walked past him. I was inserting the key when he made me turned to him.

"(Y/n).. Let's talk." He whispered. He was looking at me with the same eyes I had fallen for.

"I have no business with you anymore, Yoon Gi-ssi." I coldly said. He tighten his grip on my wrist as he looked down.

"Don't call me that." he said in a whimper.

Is he crying?

I looked at him to find faint bruises in his bare face. The damages looked like it was done few days ago.

As much as I want to touch every wounds in his face and kiss it away, it took all of my will not to. I removed his grip instead.

"I broke up with Jae Hi," He blurted. "I was wrong, (y/n)."

I was surprised but I didn't show evidences.

"and?" I asked, raising my eye brow.

"I want you back. I'll be better.." he said, looking at me as a tear rolled down his cheeks.

I felt a pang in my chest. I reached for his cheeks and brushed the tear off using my thumb.

"I was happy yet it was painful. You know what? You gave me more pain than happiness," I said. I wished he remembered what I said the time I first saw him crying in his room.