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Arrear

I decided to carry her all the way to my room. I couldn't let her sleep at the sofa. There was no heater at the living room, plus I saw how Yoon Gi looked at her awhile ago with so much interest. It wasn't that I didn't trust him, I just didn't want him to do something stupid. 

"I guess, I'm gonna sleep at the floor tonight." I said to myself as I covered her body with my blanket.

After I got the most comfortable position to sleep, I closed my eyes.

"Please help me.. please." I opened my eyes immediately and sat up.

"What was that?" I said to nobody but myself. Whose voice was that in my dreams? I shook my head vigorously trying to shake it off.

I looked at the girl on my bed, she was still sleeping peacefully. I searched for my phone. There was a message. It was from Jae Hi.

The girl that once broke my heart.

No matter how much I fool myself and reason out that I needed to focus on my group first, the real catch was that I didn't want to suffer the same pain as before.

From Jae Hi:

I heard you were sick? Are you doing fine now? Do you want me to go pay you a visit?

I could still remember how happy I was with her 2 years ago..

She was the shy type. She laughed at simple things and get swayed easily. It wasn't hard to please her. Our relationship was too good to be real.

Until I formed BTS..

It was my fault. I was too overwhelmed the time we debuted so I wasn't able to cope up with her. She grew cold. She fell out of love.

"I don't think I can do this anymore. You weren't there when I needed you but he was there. He filled the emptiness I was feeling when it could've been you." she said with a shaky voice. Those words.. those painful words I didn't imagine she would say to me.

"A-are you breaking up with me? Let me fix this, baby. I'll do better. I promise. Just.. just don't leave me." I said as I hugged her. My eyes shed a single tear. I pleaded her like a moron. I couldn't let her go.

"I'm so sorry, Namjoon." She said before leaving.

I fell down to my knees.

I typed a reply then erased. I repeated the act for like numerous times then put my phone back to the table. I ignored it. That was a progress. For the first time, I was able to resist her. I smiled and dozed back to deep slumber.

I had a lots of things to do tomorrow.

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Ring.. ring..

I grunted as I reached for my phone then swiped it to answer whoever bastard tried to call me. I wanted more sleep.

"Hello?!" I shouted but adrenaline immediately took over my body. I sat up as fast as lightning.

"WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE?! WERE YOU THAT STUPID HUH, NAMJOON?!"

I had to distance my phone from my ear and looked at the screen to make sure who was the person I was talking to.

Oh-oh. It was our manager.

"I'm so sorry, Manager-nim. I tried to stop them but-"

"NO BUTS! I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE THIS IRRESPONSIBLE! COME TO MY OFFICE, RIGHT NOW!" he yelled then hung up.

I'm so dead.

I pulled my hair out of frustration then stood up. I almost forgot I wasn't alone in my room. I checked the girl and shook her shoulder to wake her up.