Story Of A Searching Girl: junior year

June 17, 2017

So far, my summer has been the same schedule every day:

Monday-Thursday

Take a shower and eat breakfast. Then go to wrestling practice at 7. Then I get home at 10 and eat again. Shower. Then I watch Netflix. Take a nap. When I wake up from the nap, I would play World of Warcraft and text Ryan and Charissa for the rest of the evening. I would go to sleep around 9 but wake up again around midnight. I would always get a Snapchat from Ryan and I would reply whether it was something he sent 3 hours ago or 3 minutes ago. He would still be up either way. We would usually talk for an hour until one of us fell asleep (it was me most of the time)

Friday-Sunday

I didn't have practice these days so I would just stay around the house sleeping, text/talk to Ryan and Charissa, watching Netflix, eating, and playing World of Warcraft. Charissa would come over and hang out every once in a while. We would stay around the house sleeping, watching Netflix, eating, and playing World of Warcraft.

This wasn't the most amusing schedule, but it was a schedule I couldn't complain about. I was happy with this schedule. My favorite part would have to be wrestling. It has been very fun. It gets challenging and difficult at times but durable. Everyone on the team is really cool and they are very nice. There are a few other girls on the team, but the guy wrestlers say I am probably the coolest one of all the girls. That is a title I really hope I could stick with...but knowing my luck and how managing the football team went I doubt it. I honestly think as long as I don't get in any type of relationship other than as a friend or brotherly way, I should be fine.

Oh, speaking of football managing...remember that football manager that was a real bitch? Christina. She is pregnant now. Four months pregnant. She has been the talk of the school. She is having a baby with the guy she cheated on her boyfriend with.

This passed Wednesday I took my driving written test. I didn't pass. Other than my family, I only told two people I was taking the test; Ryan and Charissa. Ryan laughed at me when I told him I didn't pass, but I got my chance at laughter later that evening. Ryan sent me a picture of himself with a huge gash in his head that had no hair and with a badly chipped tooth. Apparently, Ryan was fighting the floor of the pool and he hurt himself. I don't understand. It seemed really stupid but I didn't was to ask him so many questions. We both did something stupid that day.

The whole night I was texting Ryan to make sure he was okay. I told him that I thought he was going to have to go the hospital that night and I would walk there if I had to just so I can make sure he was okay. I wasn't able to sleep that night without knowing he was okay. That night he thanked me for caring so much about him and he was very thankful to have me in his life. This made my day. I felt very happy when he told me that. It is nice to hear someone appreciating you for caring for them. This was the point I was most certain that we were true friend; friends that were not going to have any sex. We turned a new leaf.

But then Friday happened. We talked that morning, when he woke up, just like we usually do. He said he finally fixed his car and he was spending time with his dad. Then I took a nap, but I sent him Snapchat when I woke up. It was a video of me dancing to Barbie Girl. It was captioned with How I spend my summers at home. I wasn't expecting him to respond with the words he responded with. He said, "I'm horny lmao." Instead of replying to that, I just changed the subject to my pet lizards. I told him I was going to feed them vegan chicken nuggets. I thought it worked. I thought he forgot about it but e didn't.

Ryan: Wow you totally ignored what I said lol

Me: What do you mean?

Ryan: I said I was horny