My Secret - Breece

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Blake's perspective

We were once again on stage but this time sadly the last time for this tour, I'm going to miss this so much.
When I'm on stage are I feeling like the happiest person alive and I don't feel like the loser that I really are for once. I don't feel the anxiety that I feel every night. When I'm on stage I forget all the negative things, the only thing that's matters in that moment is me, Reece and George on a stage in front of a crowd that's screaming, dancing and singing to our songs.

The song slowly ends and the fans screams got louder, me and the boys was slowly walking to each other and when all three of us was in the middle of the stage we created a group hug.
I looked up at Reece and my eyes met his warm green eyes, he smiled and then looked at George but my eyes was just looking at Reece.
How his dark blonde hair was everywhere which made him look so cute.
His smile is so bright and beautiful and makes me happy because he's happy.
And his voice, it sounds like a thousand of angels are living inside him to make his voice that beautiful.

"Blake, what are you looking at?" I hear Reece say and I looked away and blushed, how could I be so stupid, like I just can't look at him like a psycho and that Reece caught me staring at him was just so embarrassing of course he doesn't want somebody ugly as me staring at him.
I just shake my head and Reece and George started to laugh and then we all walked of the stage and waived to our fans.

When we got of the stage George and Reece started to run to the couch that we had backstage and after just some second they starts to fake fighting like they always do, of course is Reece the strongest one so just in like two minutes Reece is sitting over George and I can't help to get jealous.

I sat on a chair beside a little table, I looked over at George and Reece again  that now just sits with their phones in their hands. I looked at Reece and I can't help the smile I get on my face when I look at him.

I have known in a long time that I only attracts to boys but I have never said anything about that to anyone and specially not the boys because I don't know how they are going to react, but the worst thing isn't that I attracts to boys, the worst thing is that I'm in love with my best friend Reece.

I know that's it's wrong to like your best friend in the way I do and specially if you're in a band together, like I don't want to split up our band just because I'm in love with Reece but it's eating me inside to hide my feelings for him, that I just can't go to him and kiss him right now but that's just so wrong.

Since the day I started to really like Reece, like some like more than I should, I have had trouble with talking to him because I'm so scared to say something embarrassing so I have like started to avoid him because I'm scared to face the truth that I really love that boy. But it's really hard to try avoid someone when you're on a tour with him in a strange country.

But if he only knew how much he means to me, would things be different? Yes, of course they would, we aren't going to be friends anymore, Reece is straight and he can literally get every girl he ever wanted and then me, ugly, fat Blake that's in love with his best friend and the band will be long gone.

I woke up from my thoughts by hearing someone shout out my name.
I see how George and Reece are standing in the door, ready to go out somewhere to eat, I started to go to them and put on my jacket and we started to go At the empty streets. It's January so it's still very cold outside and this is the first time it's really snowing outside. It's not like that I'm complaining, I love snow.

Reece's perspective

While we walk the furthest streets to try to find a resturant that looks like a good place to eat in, I look at Blake , it looks like he is living in another world.
I do not know what has happened to him over the past few weeks, he just seems to be so off, he does not talk as much as he always does, He almost never smile laugh or talks as he always does. He just goes there and looks so empty.

He's my best friend and of course I care about how he feels, but I doesn't want to ask if something has happened, I do not know if I've done something wrong because he's started avoiding me lately and he definitely does not want to talk to me.

I'm gonna try to talk to him later. I do not want him to be mad at me for something I don't know that I have done, but now when we're still on tour isn't the right time to ask like I don't want to get into a fight with him or something.

Blake's perspective

When we have found a resturant and got our food, I'm just sitting and picking in the food, I ordered a hamburger, before I loved hamburgers but not anymore, burgers are too unhealthy for me and make me even more fatter than I already is. I pick up a chips and just sat and drag it around in the ketchup. I notice how both George and Reece are watching me, I look up at them and give them a sadly smile.

"Blake, what's the matter? You've been so down in these last weeks and we're getting worried" George says and  giving me some kind of sympathy look.

"Nothing special, just miss my home and my own bed" I said and faked a smile and try it to sound so true as possible. Either way they are believing me, or they understand that they not going to get me to talk because they just nods and continue to eating their food.

About 20 minutes later we left the restaurant and started going to the hotel. It's very dark outside and the only thing that lights up the walkway are the few street lights on the roadside.

When we have arrived at the hotel, we get up to the hundred stairs leading us to the hotel rooms,  because this very strange hotel has no elevator.

Reece's perspective

It's very dark in the hotel, it's almost that we don't even find our room, who even made a hotel with such bad lighting like this?

When we have finally found our hotel room, Blake begins to stumble around in his backpack after the hotel key, but quickly gives up and sucks.

"Can someone light with a flashlight, I don't see a shit in this bag"

I quickly pick up my phone and turn on the flashlight and direct it to Blake's bag. He begins to stumble around in it again and I'm looking forward to checking what he has in his bag, not  because I really care but it may be fun to know. Soon he finds the key in the bottom of the bag and he quickly takes it up before closing the bag and throwing it over the shoulder.
Just before he closing his bag, I can see a letter with the name "Reece" clad on. Is it me Reece he means or is it someone else?
I'm curious about the letter and I'm close to asking about it but I chooses to don't it because it's already a bit awkward between me and Blake.

He quickly locks up the hotel room and everyone goes into the room and lays down on one of the beds and falls asleep all three in the same bed.