Chancy .AU. ||Niall Horan•Frat boy||

16.

As I sat in my dorm, on my bed, shaking and scratching my arms. The need for coke was un-bearable. My heart was pumping so fast I thought it was going to lunge out of my chest. All I needed was a smudge. Just a sniff and I would be okay. Wouldn't I?

Coke helps me escape. It relaxes me when I'm stressed and right now I am so stressed. Niall is completely ignoring me, because he has swooned my best friend and they always hang out. They are together every minute of everyday and I hate it. How could she just back stab me the minute she gets here.

Since that whole shindig is going on I've been hanging with Liam and watching movies, going to class then returning straight back to my dorm with some cans of beer and getting wasted. Its just a release I suppose.

So as of right now I am shaking and locked into my dorm. I would leave only I cannot find my key and Tazzy left and locked the door. My shaky hands fumbled around looking for my phone. Eventually I found it under my bed, I searched Niall's number.

Patiently I awaited for him to answer, unfortunately it went to voicemail.

"Sorry I can't get to the phone right now,I am probably with the most amazing person ever fifi and the flower tots" After hearing his beautiful voice full of joy after mentioning her name, made me break down. Tears streamed down my paled face and I threw my phone against the wall in frustration.

Hours later, after pacing the floor and tearing my arms off from scratching them. I came up with an idea. Slowly I neared the window and looked down at the height from the window to the ground. I gulped loudly and opened the window fully.

Carefully I stepped out onto the ledge. Looking down I gasped, but continued to slowly step across the ledge. My foot slipped and I fell, luckily I caught the ledge with my sweaty hands. Shit why did I do this I though out loud.

"FUCK! LOLA WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING" A thick voice yelled up at me. I turned my head to the right only to see Darren down below looking worried.

"I SLIPPED" I shakily shouted down, when one hand slipped from the ledge and I was hanging on from one hand.

"LET GO LOLA I HAVE YOU" Darren shouted up. Having a battle with myself in my head whether or not to jump made me unstable some how.

Finally I let go and felt my body being lunged into thin air. My breath got caught and I choked on my own spit. Suddenly there was a forceful impact and arms were wrapped around my back and legs.

"Thank you thank you oh my god I am stupid I don't know what I was thinking I haven't a clue Darren help me please" I cried into his shoulder. I felt his hands caress my back gently and in a soothing way.

"What do you need Darlin" Darren whispered in my ear. I fisted his hoodie for support. Also to stop myself shaking.

"C-coke, please Darren" My eyes watered and he nodded, pulling me behind him hastily.

Twenty minutes later we were in an alley south of the College. Darren still pulled me along, protecting me when men walked by. They looked intimidating and dangerous. Darren stopped to a halt and pushed me against the red brick wall. Reaching Into his pocket he pulled out a clear plastic bag with a white substance in it. This was it. My insides felt all hot and excited I just wanted it now.

"Here you go love" He smiled and handed it to me. Preparing it into a line and sniffing it up threw a ten dollar bill I felt free. I studied Darren a bit closer this time. He was honestly beautiful.

His hair was cut short with a little fringe. Dark hair suited him and complimented his beautiful green/blue eyes that had a magnificent shine to them. Even the facial hair on his chin looked beautiful. My eyes landed on his lips. Before I could help it, my lips treated his with a tender touch. He didn't flinch or move. My hands locked either side of his head and continued to forcefully kiss his gorgeous lips and lick them, finally he registered and kissed back. His large, warm hands hooked under my thighs and lifted me up so my crotch was on his lower stomach.